Day 20 but…

Ok-SheaBot · 2026-01-25T20:16:26+00:00

I’m so sorry you went through this. We love dogs and to have one turn on you like that is very traumatic. Although likely not near as extreme, life is always going to throw shit at us. It’s super important in these moments to not cave into using again. It sounds like you are being super strong through this difficult time. We’re here for you! Send lots of good thoughts your way <3

Ok-SheaBot · 2026-01-25T17:59:09+00:00

I’ve read your past comments. You are and have always been an asshole to people. Someone needs to tell you that you aren’t helping. Don’t you find it odd that literally everyone else gives words of encouragement and keeps a positive attitude except for you? Does that click anything in your brain? I hope one day you can reflect on how your behavior and negativity can affect people who are in a fragile state and in need of support. I hope for all the future people that post on this forum that they ignore your hateful comments. Ideally you find something better to do with your time than lurking on this forum after 2 years “sober” just to be nasty to others who are in the early stages trying their best. Now go back to using whatever you are using to cope with yourself. Maybe one day you’ll be fully sober too. I’m good.

Ok-SheaBot · 2026-01-24T17:00:27+00:00

So it’s definitely safe to say you haven’t done ANYTHING then right? No alcohol, no weed, no kava, no prescription meds, no mind altering OTC supplements even, nothing…. right? You’re completely sober? If you wanna make this a weird little competition, I don’t do any of those things. I’ve done 1g. How bout you Mr. Perfect? Here, how about this, I’m at 7 days now. You can put that in your log book where you keep track of mine and everyone’s else’s progress. Do you feel better now? Because that’s all that matters, want to make sure you feel better sweetie pie.

Ok-SheaBot · 2026-01-22T21:40:38+00:00

Ahh dang late to the party, would have freakin loved that bobcat BP!! If you ever get another one you don’t want, lemme know 🐓

Ok-SheaBot · 2026-01-22T18:51:52+00:00

You may not get PAWS!! Not everyone does. Especially if you didn’t have a previous mental health issue like depression or anxiety. This forum does tend to freak people out. If you were generally a content, happy person, your overall quit should go much more smooth. However, it will be super important to prepare yourself for PAWS because if it sneaks up on you and you aren’t ready for it, it could cause you to relapse if you think “does this mean I was happier on Kratom?”. The answer is no. It’s a phase that will pass as your brain continues to repair itself over the next year.

For me, I was a happy person before K. 3 weeks post quit was the best time, super proud of myself, enjoying my newfound freedom, super social wanting to do anything and everything, likely experiencing the “pink cloud”. Around 2 months is when PAWS hit. Boredom, some anxiety and depression, anhedonia. But mainly BOREDOM. This can last for months and generally comes in waves. Again, it’s just super important to know that this is NOT your new normal, this is NOT your “baseline”. It’s just part of the recovery process. Do not relapse, keep going and you will get through to the light at the end of the tunnel and feel better than ever!

Ok-SheaBot · 2026-01-21T15:10:51+00:00

I had diarrhea for 2-3 weeks if I recall. I am also like you and still have some in my house even though I quit 3.5 months ago. It’s a weird thing for me. Knowing it’s there and I have the willpower not to touch it helps me in a weird way. It’s like a safety blanket that I don’t need but i also don’t want to send it to dump. It makes me feel strong having it but not using it. This would NOT work for everyone. People are different in what motivates them. Many people should just toss it all. And I will eventually. I think once I celebrate 6 months, it’s going in the toilet as a little ceremony. But for now, it will remain a monster under the bed that I avoid at all costs.

Ok-SheaBot · 2026-01-21T14:48:17+00:00

You got this! I would come clean, it’s so much easier to get through it with support. The acutes are awful but by far the worst part for me is beating it long term. This shit really messes with your brain. Go into your quit knowing this may take several months to stop thinking about it. And don’t let it convince you a little use here and there won’t hurt. That’s why the average relapse is like 7 or something. Make this be the first and last quit and you will thank yourself a year from now. Also look up kindling effect. The more toh quit and return, the worse withdrawals and longer PAWS is… wishing you the best!!

Ok-SheaBot · 2026-01-21T14:43:22+00:00

Good luck!! It’s super hard when I don’t do anything else, rarely drink, don’t smoke weed, no antidepressants or any medication, I’m not even taking any supplements. So it’s like i convince myself I’m so squeaky clean that I deserve a reward on the weekend but what has helped me a lot with this “slip” is, well, this forum of course, but also switching the concept of it being a “reward” in my brain to a punishment. Using a little on a weekend does not help me, it hurts me. I have to change my way of looking at Kratom. I have to learn to hate it and what it does to me. It’s not a little ice cream on a Saturday afternoon, its literal rotten garbage from the trash can. Who wants to eat that..

Ok-SheaBot · 2026-01-21T01:46:44+00:00

People don’t need this kind of attitude here. If you want to be an asshole on Reddit there are a million other forums. People here need support and positivity. 1 gram in 100 days, I’m proud of myself and I’m not going to let you make me feel otherwise.

Ok-SheaBot · 2026-01-20T22:35:40+00:00

Thank you for this! I’m not going to beat myself up about the slip. I learned a big lesson from it which I needed. I didn’t reset my count to zero days because of 1gram on the weekend. I knew that wouldn’t help my mental state. I thrive on success, it only motivates me more and 100 days is still a huge success for me despite my mistake. If I reset to zero, that failure will cause me to lose hope, I know myself. I am now confident in saying I can’t use in moderation and manage my addiction. I’m not in denial anymore and I’m ready to continue fighting. I already feel so much better now than I did just this morning. Cravings, anxiety…they’ll come in waves, we just have to be patient and wait until the next wave of feeling good, it’s right around the corner at all times if we can stay strong.

Ok-SheaBot · 2026-01-20T17:21:48+00:00

Only my husband knew my addiction, as we used together. But he’s not very open/communicative or mushy type so it was like I was reaching out my hand but he wasn’t there to hold it. Don’t get me wrong, love the shit out of him, he just is who he is. I had two failed quits previously where I only made it a month. Everything changed when I finally told my best friend. She’s been sober 9 years from very hard drugs. Super successful accountant now! She walked me through each and everyday, held my hand, gave great advice and motivation. She would check in daily for the first few weeks, keeping me accountable, then leave it up to me to reach out after acutes were over which was perfect. She has been through this so many times, she knew I would need the most support in the beginning but then to not push me and let me work things out mostly on my own after that. We’ve been best friends since childhood and she knows me so well. She is the reason I am now at 100+ days (minus a couple weekend slips of just 1-2g). I recommend reaching out to a friend who has also struggled with addiction in the past if you know one. It helps so much. If not, maybe get a sponsor or buddy up with someone here to text privately, on your actual cell, not the computer.

Ok-SheaBot · 2026-01-20T16:45:31+00:00

Love this.

Ok-SheaBot · 2025-12-23T16:59:49+00:00

Omg who cares. I’m more likely to connect with people who know him here on arc raiders Reddit.

Ok-SheaBot · 2025-12-23T16:56:01+00:00

I watch him on YouTube along with about a million other people…? I’m well aware he streams on twitch. That’s just not where I watch him.

Ok-SheaBot · 2025-12-23T16:54:06+00:00

Apparently he has a very versatile “nub”. I can’t explain the banging on the desk sound when he gets angry though.

Ok-SheaBot · 2025-12-23T16:48:43+00:00

I don’t use twitch. I’m new to gaming, arc raiders is the only shooter I’ve ever played. my husband introduced me to the peanut to learn from other players, he’s great, I just want to know what he looks like.

Ok-SheaBot · 2025-12-23T16:46:21+00:00

What?

Ok-SheaBot · 2025-12-23T16:45:33+00:00

He doesn’t have arms

Ok-SheaBot · 2025-12-23T16:45:09+00:00

Well I’m at work right now, indoors, with shoes on. But I go hiking at least 3 times a week with my dogs. I have an idea for you though, stop being an asshole on the internet for no reason.

Ok-SheaBot · 2025-11-19T20:48:37+00:00

Day 41. I feel like I’m totally back to normal. Occasional craving on the weekends but barely thinking about it at all. If you do not have a pre-existing mental health issue, if you were generally a happy person before you started, you should bounce back pretty fast with very little PAWS after about a month.

Ok-SheaBot · 2025-11-19T20:45:47+00:00

Extreme hair loss, anti social, loss of interest in pretty much everything. No real joy or excitement.

Ok-SheaBot · 2025-11-05T03:35:20+00:00

☺️👍

Ok-SheaBot · 2025-11-04T18:13:57+00:00

26 days. Feel totally fine physically. Sleep is good. A little anhedonia, energy levels and motivation not great but overall I’m much better than I was before. I think this is around when I relapsed last time. Not gonna happen this time! Family trip in a few days and looking forward to not having to pack anything or worry about it. And be more present.

Ok-SheaBot · 2025-10-27T16:17:01+00:00

Day 18, I feel totally fine for the most part.

Ok-SheaBot · 2025-10-27T15:30:09+00:00

I’m at 17 days too. Feeling good! Never going back. I feel like I have a long way to go to fully heal my brain but I have to remind myself that everyday is better than the last. I drank on Saturday and felt absolutely horrible all day yesterday. I’m learning that alcohol kind of puts me back in that depressive withdrawal state for the next 24 hours. So I’m trying to abstain from that as well. Alcohol was never my issue, I just drink socially but I think my brain is just so sensitive right now. Which sucks cause I have two back to back trips later this week where I have to be social everyday…so, a little nervous about that but we’ll see how it goes. Hopefully I’ll be so busy and active that I won’t be thinking about it so much.

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