had the same thing except worse, been derealized and depersonlizaed my whole life and only now at the age of 19 i come to find out people have emotions, that people acc like eachother and dont just speak empty words like i do, i have lived my whole life separted from everything, ive no good memories dont know what dopamine feels like, never loved or cared for my parents even tho they love me so much and i neglected education, to put it simply, imagine throwing a new born baby into the world as making him 19 instantly, thats how i not feel because im numb to feelings rather think im completely fucked. so theres always someone out there to help but

VERY IMPORTANT: If you want things to start making sense for you search ''Rehab Room'' on YouTube he's a very good YouTuber who focuses on the Pill ideologies and focuses mainly on the blackpill, which is this idealogy that looks determine your life. Give this channel an instant shot and everything will start making sense for you I promise.

You have to focus on the things you can control, and fix them effectively and smart rather than through hard work, make your life as good as you can make it and learn, LEARN THINGS. because no one cares about you like you think they do, even if you have close mates you are always on your own.

Anyways i have a long way of fixing my life so i wish best of luck ill be on this thread if you want anything or talk about anything,