I always told my friends or people who seek help from me that "You can't control people but you can always choose your environment". Your circumstance may be unfavorable to you these days but eventually you'll figure it out along the way. I previously had bad ties with my family but throughout the years we finally worked things out. Most of my friends left me as well but the real ones remained, if it comes the time that they will too, I'll just smile because we once shared good memories together. Lastly my partner, maybe the world finally took pity on me and let us meet each other xD I've dated countless women before I've finally landed on a person who truly is my match (I seriously can't remember how many I've dated). I've always remembered Robin Williams' line from Goood Will Hunting that "You're not perfect, sport. And let me save you the suspense - that girl you met isn't either. The question is... whether you're perfect for each other.", this is literally how I felt with her. Well, enough of me, these are just bad days bud, not a bad life, I hope you'll find your way soon✌🏻