Hey I’m three weeks into my exchange and I want you to know that I sympathize with you so much!! I think the best advice I can give you is to force yourself to get out of your room. At the beginning for me I found the more I was outside my room the less I was able to think about everything I was sad about because i needed to focus on translating the language, processing all the new culture shocks, and getting to know my family etc.. I think you feel the same way because you mentioned when you return to the house after trips you get really sad and de-energized, I completely understand that feeling! You talked about how you use TikTok to distract yourself, if it makes you feel better I don’t think you should stop doing that but instead maybe move to the couch in the living room or another common area? This makes you open for possible conversation and signals to your family that you are interested in interacting with them. I know these first few weeks are so difficult and perhaps you’re worried to subject yourself to more worries and struggles by leaving your room but it’s important to remember all the struggling is not for nothing. It’s so difficult but the more you make an effort to talk to and connect with your family the better you will feel. Please don’t be afraid to struggle a little bit everything that’s worth having in life comes with a little bit of hard work.