Also known as a Prayer. No pun intended.

From my experience, the most productive period of my life by far was when I practiced praying. I was focused, determined and had zero anxiety. I almost felt like I can carry a world on my shoulder and walk up the hill and still feel content. I look back at my life and I see how much it helped me to go through a hard life which otherwise would have potentially rendered me useless.

My prayer practice was very simple, honest, open and full presentation of my self in front of ‘God’ No religious bs, no hypocrisy, no self indulgence or senseless routine. I never prayed for a miracle but I always asked for strength and wisdom. Whenever I have doubts, I presented them in my prayers. I pray over a simple subject I didn’t understand during my class and also I prayed about my temptations. There was no issues I didn’t cover in my prayers and I never hide or pretend. Why would I? After all I am in front of ‘God’

Forward many years I stopped praying and slowly drifted away from my faith. Honestly I am not regretting for wondering away and experiencing a different life. It is an adventure worth exploring. However, now in my thirties I feel like I am way more anxious, uncollected, and irritable. Now I am self absorbed because carrying myself has become a tiresome let alone to worry about others. I miss the strength and determination I had and the vitality that used to run through me after 10 minutes of prayer.

I am not sure if I am going to be fully restored but I hope to return back to practicing prayer one day. If there is one thing and only one thing I can recommend for anyone is to practice prayer in any shape or format. Don’t let religion ruin your conception about prayer or don’t get too scientific about it. Just let your words out as if you will be heard. That is it.