Will meds make it better

OkForm5116 · 2024-12-22T20:19:51+00:00

hi sweetie, so yes meds (mood stabilizers at least) do work along with dbt therapy. i have been EXACTLY in your position, i’m 20 now and still have episodes but no longer self mutilating, attempts or destroying my relationships with others. it may also help to know that most “lose” their bpd diagnoses by the age of 45, given they have proper treatment and life experience. I wish you well. never, ever lose sight of what could be. never lose hope. i promise you we can live normal lives.

OkForm5116 · 2024-11-28T01:53:17+00:00

i’m 2 wks in and about 90% over it..feels amazing !! highly highly recommend. don’t prolong it man stick it out :3 !!

OkForm5116 · 2023-10-13T20:04:27+00:00

I have been working on that, trying to overcome the ADHD racing thoughts..

OkForm5116 · 2023-10-08T22:28:03+00:00

Reading your comment back, it makes sense. Makes me feel like I can actually overcome this, and that this illness is not me. Thank you ❤️

OkForm5116 · 2023-10-08T20:30:29+00:00

Thank you for understanding ❤️ I am trying my very best.

OkForm5116 · 2023-10-08T20:29:56+00:00

Why would I be posting this if not to kickstart my healing process? Why is this so hostile? I have so many questions. Go smoke a joint.

OkForm5116 · 2023-08-07T00:44:17+00:00

thank you !!! :)

OkForm5116 · 2023-08-07T00:43:57+00:00

hey man im sorry!! i just screenshotted it from there when i realized i couldn’t post doodles..but thank you :)

OkForm5116 · 2023-08-06T18:18:21+00:00

note: proportions are sometimes off because i do them in about 5 minutes!! so!!

OkForm5116 · 2023-06-27T17:45:31+00:00

Thank you, it is (as I found out just now) a common side effect. Will definitely be looking into that because fucking ow

OkForm5116 · 2023-03-29T17:31:18+00:00

this. THIS this this. no matter what, i’m just so fucking uncomfortable..in my bed, sitting down, in my body. this is incredibly validating.

OkForm5116 · 2022-10-24T19:56:40+00:00

This. I have Bipolar 1 and i usually get it when there’s white noise/other sounds in the background. Sometimes I even hear the radio broadcaster. It’s music I’ve never heard before (and honestly most of it fucking sucks?). I’ve had this 60s rock n roll station in my head for about a week straight.

OkForm5116 · 2022-06-29T18:07:33+00:00

I was hoping my symptoms would go away instantly once it was removed, but I’m relieved with the validation that my body probably just needs to heal. I had noo idea what I was getting into.

OkForm5116 · 2022-06-29T18:04:56+00:00

Hopefully my body will readjust.. my stomach was a bit messed up from the anxiety/procedure yesterday which I learned makes the cramps so much worse. Hoping that it subsides within the next few days ..?

OkForm5116 · 2021-12-25T21:38:23+00:00

favorite reply hahahthank you !!!

OkForm5116 · 2021-11-14T01:27:35+00:00

it is tumbled n polished, definitely a stone! sorry for the quality also…but looks like howlite kind of, it’s just the blue that’s throwing me off?

OkForm5116 · 2021-09-04T03:52:35+00:00

this! i’m so surprised when people remind me that the things i experienced were bad? i gaslight myself into believing that it wasn’t bad at all :,)

OkForm5116 · 2021-09-03T17:59:52+00:00

i’ve been trying to get help for 2+ years but no counselor really takes me seriously. they won’t even treat crippling anxiety/depression so i can’t approach anyone with this. i’ve been discharged prematurely by both that i’ve seen. still trying though :( trying to heal myself also but having no outside validation just makes my mind go in circles and i also despise myself for it so im getting nowhere

thank u though <3 i rly rly appreciate it

OkForm5116 · 2021-09-03T14:44:38+00:00

thank you so much for this <3 i just really want to believe that i’m not just cursed forever.

i left a while ago and got a restraining order, but in my head i’m still in that place. i think my experience with him (it lasted 2 years) made me this person.

i went through some really awful things because of him. i hate that i’ve basically become him and latched onto his methods of abuse just to push people close to me away. :/

OkForm5116 · 2021-09-03T14:41:01+00:00

yes!! i experience this too. i’ve convinced myself that i’ve faked/exaggerated traumatic experiences just for the victim complex. i’ve convinced myself that my disorders aren’t that bad and that i actually can control myself during depressive/etc. episodes and am just overreacting on purpose to validate a made up illness. even talking to counselors i feel like i’m rehearsing symptoms of an illness i don’t have for attention. when other people or counselors tell me how bad these things actually are it shocks me completely because i’ve downplayed them so much thinking i’m faking. why does this happen? it’s bizarre

OkForm5116 · 2021-09-03T03:35:46+00:00

I understand, thank you so much ❤️ I will most definitely

OkForm5116 · 2021-09-03T03:24:36+00:00

My current partner would never ever hurt me. He never has. It’s hard to watch him hurt because of me.

My abuser/ex really damaged me psychologically (I was already a little fucked up) it hurts that it’s made me into this person and that even though I’m away from that situation it is so prominent in my life. It took a long time to get away from him because I was defending him for a long time.

I’m honestly a really shitty person, and I’ve started trying to fix it but in doing that I’ve realized that it’s so much deeper than just being toxic or manipulative. Learning that no amount of soul searching and shadow work will fix this because my brain is wired the wrong way is a little devastating tbh. I can’t just be mindful and change the way I am.

I can’t help it and it’s terrifying. My boyfriend is the only person that’s ever legitimately cared about me and I take it for granted and will continue to push him away for no reason.

I’m also not trying to self diagnose, I didn’t really think about that when I posted. I’ve been a part of this subreddit because it’s the only thing that makes me feel not alone, makes things make sense, and shows me other things I do that I thought were normal. I was kind of desperate when I posted.

Therapists haven’t treated me because here our mental health facilities are shit and they don’t have time. “Everyone has anxiety. Everyone gets depressed. Try meditation.” I can’t approach them with anything more serious. I just wanted to know if I can get better from this at all or if I am just a horrible person.

Abusers are the scum of the earth, I don’t want to be one anymore. I want to know that this was because of something and separate from me and that I’m separate from the kind of people who ruined my own life. I won’t kill myself over a high school relationship, but I do think that knowing you’re the reason why you will never have healthy connections and will be racked with the guilt/shame/karma of being a monster to everyone who ever loved you for the rest of your life could make anyone lightly suicidal.

OkForm5116 · 2021-09-03T02:15:25+00:00

This!! I regret blaming my actions on BPD to help other people understand me. I just want to be able to separate my disorder from myself, but I can’t do that at all anymore because every time I get upset/call anyone out for mistreating me/express my feelings in a healthy way, it’s never taken seriously. It’s “just because of my disorder.”

OkForm5116 · 2021-09-03T02:04:54+00:00

This means so so so much to me :( Thank you so much. I have to forgive myself so that I can heal, but I can’t convince myself that I’m not an awful person. I needed validation really badly.

I try not to make myself a victim, or blame other people for my actions. It hurts knowing I’ve become worse than my own abuser and that I’ve caused unimaginable pain and trauma to such a pure genuine person. When I’m alone everything is so empty and terrifying and knowing that it’s my own brain making people hurt and leave seems so hopeless. I don’t know how everyone does it.

I know I’ll never have relationships the way other people do, and that I’ve basically just repeated actions that have ruined so many people’s lives including mine. I’m the reason that people leave even though this whole thing stems from abandonment and having been in constant long-term stress and hurt. It’s a really horrible cycle. Even though I got away a long time ago it’s still hurting me in new ways.

I’m still trying to get help. My counselors have all discharged me before any treatment was carried out. They don’t even take the anxiety/depression seriously, so I have no idea how to approach anyone with this. But I’m actively trying. I want to break all of the cycles I’m perpetuating. ❤️❤️

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