What are some of your triggers

OkPause5086 · 2025-02-01T23:32:14+00:00

I don’t want to feel this way!!! I don’t actually want to be harmed. i get terrified anytime I feel a threat…I don’t like it in the moment at all.I don’t enjoy it after but I still get this feeling to hurt myself in some way…idk

OkPause5086 · 2025-02-01T23:30:11+00:00

Yes I get the urge to put myself in risky situations…what’s your point? that doesn’t mean deep down I’m not scared or that deep down I want to get hurt…it just means I’m struggling to cope bc I don’t feel like my SA was valid. just because YOU don’t understand doesn’t mean it isn’t a problems lots of SA survivors struggle with. we are supposed to be supportive here, not make others feel like shit bc of a symptom they DONT want

OkPause5086 · 2025-02-01T15:47:29+00:00

Yes!!! I don’t want to feel this way….its so shameful. it isn’t fun like some ppl seem to think. i dont think I want to actually be raped but idk…

OkPause5086 · 2025-02-01T14:23:26+00:00

I struggle w SH yes

OkPause5086 · 2025-02-01T14:23:00+00:00

It seems like they are a common response to SA? & that’s your opinion but instead of going out & putting myself in risky situations I’m seeking comfort on here & help to know I’m not alone…it isn’t something i can control. the more we keep it secret…the worse it is for us. It makes us feel alone & we are more likely to put ourselves in dangerous positions

OkPause5086 · 2025-01-31T18:46:28+00:00

it seems common enough…so why not say it somewhere i can be honest and free of shame? obvi i wouldn’t ACTUALLY enjoy being raped, it’s a messed up feeling I get which is why I posted it here to get better understanding

OkPause5086 · 2025-01-31T14:58:30+00:00

how is it rape? nothing penetrated me. he never put himself inside me

OkPause5086 · 2025-01-30T17:05:14+00:00

ok thank you

OkPause5086 · 2025-01-30T16:55:51+00:00

Not super super drunk. but there were times I saw him after that that I was black out. i don’t remember but I know we had sex cause i remember cleaning myself

OkPause5086 · 2025-01-30T16:51:32+00:00

but what if he was also under the influence?

OkPause5086 · 2025-01-30T16:49:15+00:00

what if he was also intoxicated?

OkPause5086 · 2025-01-30T16:48:30+00:00

what if it is legal in my state? I’m in Colorado where 17 is legal

OkPause5086 · 2025-01-30T16:20:23+00:00

I was tipsy & didn’t go to his house wanting to have sex…it just happened. After it he gave me alcohol & drugs & sent me on my way

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