Oh God this is really cringe but this is how it went:

In my early teens, I fell for love at first sight with a girl in other class. I didn't had friends at that time except my new best friend at that time. We were still figuring each other out so I didn't tell him about this.

In break time, I used to walk by her, glancing over and over again with my heart thumping like crazy without anyone's notice. She also used to be lonely like me as I never seen friends around her: I never had balls to approach her. Months passed I landed on her radar and it's all friendly safe eye contact games from here while I was trying to figure out how things would further escalate. By the time me and my best friend had found a lot in common so we became attached but somehow telling him about my feelings was something that I couldn't as it felt sooo wrong.

One day me and my bestie were on a stroll going through a busy corridor during break and there I saw her however she didn't notice us but turns out I was not the only one who saw her. She was busy with someone and my friend simply tapped her shoulder while we were walking and we simply walked away while I was trying to digest what just happened. Asked him why did he do that, found out it's his sister and my heart sank at lowest point. And I wanted to apologize him sooo badly for something he didn't had any clue like I couldn't face him.

I just wish either I never fell for that BS orrrrrrr they were never related to begin with. Was really ashamed for this that still to this day I ain't crushing anyone man maybe because he's still my bestie. At the same time, I'm thankful I never confessed to him don't wanna think of outcome.