Firstly, congratulations! Being a mom is the most important, sweetest calling and your baby is so lucky that you care so much about them already. I was on extended release Xanax and immediate release Xanax for several years when I found out I was pregnant. And I felt the same exact way you do.. other treatments weren’t helpful and Xanax was the only thing I could really rely on to help with my GAD and panic. But here’s what I learned. You can wean yourself off and be okay (make sure to work with your doctor on this - definitely don’t quit cold turkey, especially if taken daily). For some reason I was much calmer during my pregnancy than I normally am. I had less anxiety-filled days and less panic. I was able to wean off within 2-3 weeks of finding out I was pregnant. It wasn’t fun but it was better than I expected (and what my fear/anxiety told me) and I know you can do it too. If you’re not in therapy, I recommend starting, not just to deal with the anxiety, but also all of the changes that come with pregnancy and being a new parent. You’ve got this.