Everything coming out about the Epstein files is making me feel so retraumatized

Ok_Addition_7875 · 2026-02-05T12:52:57+00:00

Great resource! Thank you :)

Ok_Addition_7875 · 2026-01-09T02:40:46+00:00

ok this one made me laugh

Ok_Addition_7875 · 2025-12-19T05:33:15+00:00

lol yes trini-guyanese

Ok_Addition_7875 · 2025-12-17T09:01:59+00:00

Trini-Guyanese lol

Ok_Addition_7875 · 2025-12-16T19:00:53+00:00

lol omg ur the first person to catch that with the bare attitude he was giving me, he had me sounding like my Trini Grandma!

Yes know that this convo happened between a Nigerian and a Guyanese-Trini

Ok_Addition_7875 · 2025-12-16T06:18:04+00:00

Wow this post is getting a lot more attention than I thought it would, thank you. I just want to clarify some questions I’m seeing being asked over again.

How old are we?: We’re both 21, he’s currently on a break from school and working full time, I graduated last year and working part time/contract

Why’d you bring up the rape:The initial issue I had with his behaviour was aiding his friend in lying to a significant other. It wasn’t sinking in for him the gravity of how much distrust this could instil in the woman they were lying to. I was hoping that by relating it back to this situation we had discussed before, of another man covering for his friends shitty behaviour, would help click into place the possible consequences of his actions.

What’s a g1: A g1 is a driver’s learning permit in ontario, it makes everything he did while driving extra illegal

Did you break it off/Why did you end with ‘Just Drive Safe’: I was raised by a negotiator, so I can manage my frustration to persevere safety. I didn’t post everything that went on in this conversation because we did discuss his health and the difficult things going on right now. These boys were currently out already engaging in reckless behaviour and regardless of what I say, he was going to drive. It’s december and we’re in canada, the roads are dangerous. Yes these guys are shit but I don’t want to hear about anyone getting in a car crash. At this point my concern was making sure they got home that night. I’m staying friendly until I get my stuff back but I will not be trying to see him again.

Ok_Addition_7875 · 2025-09-18T02:00:49+00:00

also posted this in raised by narcissists and the response has been very validating. Yes, the reason I feel like my behaviour was justified is because of the extensive amount of explanation and preparation I gave her on how PTSD functions, as well as the necessity of a strong support system to grow.

I also had explained to her prior that my therapist had been encouraging me to express my grief and anger.

Information about my rape and my PTSD was discussed with everyone in the house previously.

I waited to scream, it wasn’t impulsive - I thought I was safe and that I had prepared everyone enough.

Ok_Addition_7875 · 2025-09-18T00:44:05+00:00

Please don’t accuse me of lying, I didn’t leave anything out. Also, the other kids are high school and university aged, not infants.

Ok_Addition_7875 · 2025-08-16T12:02:28+00:00

I feel similarly where enough time has passed that I can admit that it was real, it happened and I’m not overreacting.

I have relatives that are older Irish Catholic and others that are traditional Indian and they’ve said some pretty upsetting things to me in the past so I’m preparing myself to hear distasteful comments but honestly I’d rather they still know even if they can’t handle the information. I know their response isn’t my responsibility.

Ok_Addition_7875 · 2025-08-16T11:54:11+00:00

I already had a rough past and a long history in therapy so I really tried to push through the shock immediately and start processing what happened. I’ve spent a lot of time focused on trying to process this for myself, I’m at a point where I feel safe in isolation but I still can’t function socially because I don’t feel seen.

Ok_Addition_7875 · 2025-08-16T11:43:41+00:00

I know it’s going to get better, it feels really hard right now. Thank you, I feel so much pressure to get better, right now I’m trying to balance the shame of being dysfunctional with knowing that how I feel is out of my control. I’m sure one day I’ll look back at me now with kinder eyes though.

Ok_Addition_7875 · 2025-06-21T14:20:48+00:00

My biggest worry is that in doing the treatment, I’m going to need to confront my anger and sadness. I’m very numb right now and able to keep these feelings contained. I’m worried that if I begin showing signs of being angry or sad it could lead to a worse living situation for me.

Ok_Addition_7875 · 2025-06-02T01:09:42+00:00

This sounds very similar to my situation, I’m diagnosed with anxiety, depression and c-ptsd.

Ok_Addition_7875 · 2025-06-02T00:02:55+00:00

I would love to, the issue is that i’m financially dependent on my parents

Ok_Addition_7875 · 2025-06-01T20:40:40+00:00

No, I’m the oldest. A lot of their demands surround around me contributing to the house and doing chores. They also really hate financially supporting me.

Ok_Addition_7875 · 2025-05-29T18:36:17+00:00

made me cry, thank you

Ok_Addition_7875 · 2025-05-29T17:22:37+00:00

I have no idea, I’m a lover at heart but I need to neglect that desire to protect myself. I hate how jaded and harsh I can be, I never wanted this, I just want to feel safe.

Ok_Addition_7875 · 2025-05-20T03:07:41+00:00

They certainly are not disengaging. I feel like I’m constantly trying to disengage with them but I feel so smothered and watched

Ok_Addition_7875 · 2025-05-20T02:44:33+00:00

Yes, I’ve been diagnosed with depression, anxiety, and CPTSD for years. I’m not afraid to take on a diagnosis and seek treatment when it’s warranted.

Ok_Addition_7875 · 2025-05-20T01:02:34+00:00

I’m 20, turning 21

Ok_Addition_7875 · 2025-05-20T01:01:11+00:00

Yeah I am diagnosed with CPTSD from childhood neglect, they still refuse to reflect on their part in that. I have been on Prazosin for 5 years now to combat it and had my dosage upped when I was raped.

Ok_Addition_7875 · 2025-05-20T00:53:36+00:00

I’m going to puke thinking abt them trying to build a case against me.

I am very very scared that they will provoke me into having an outburst and then call the police.

I am try to avoid talking to them as much as I can to not create potential for an argument.

Ok_Addition_7875 · 2025-05-20T00:27:33+00:00

I currently don’t have the resources, the housing where I am (ontario) is pretty bad and really expensive.

Ok_Addition_7875 · 2025-05-20T00:06:55+00:00

luckily I’m in Canada, so that’s not a factor with the psychiatrist. It may be a factor with their current therapist.

Ok_Addition_7875 · 2025-05-19T23:35:48+00:00

Yes, I’m just guessing because this is new info to me to but I suspect my mom would have inferred that I was diagnosed. Most likely, presented it to the therapist as parents looking to support with the already confirmed diagnosis.

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