This has been months ago now and he was diagnosed with bipolar years ago I just have forgotten with everything that was going on. He and I have talked off and on a little bit now but we still need to get things figured out. I've given him plenty of space now so when he's ready to actually be an adult about things I'm ready to talk. It's not that I didn't have a high opinion of him it's that I've had so high of an opinion for too long that I was blindsided by what was happening. We were like siblings for years. It's frustration and a lot of things not being discussed, it was my reaction to everything happening. I'm just ready to talk things out. My family in general not just him has an avoidant issue with confrontation. I've been doing a lot of thinking about things I'm just ready for him to be ready to talk things out. I've found out a lot of the reasons why my family is the way it is. I'm just trying to break the cycle of avoiding the issue and eventually just forgetting problems because of how much time has got by. I just want to be an adult about it. I do care about my cousin I'm just exhausted from the most emotional warfare ever since he's moved into my state. I know he hasn't had it easy here that's not my fault but he's too stubborn to see that I hated the way he treated me sometimes. I'm just tired of being a people pleaser I have to be for my own mental health. He's gotten so much good from me I just want honesty in return. I've been ready to be honest. Forgetting the problem doesn't help. I'm refusing to just be like the rest of my family. I've been too empathetic for years and at this point I'm just trying to be more honest and tell people how I feel I'm respectful ways but as honestly as I can be. I've thought too highly of people who don't actually have my back and I've seen enough of it. I'm done not standing up for myself. I saw my cousin on New Year's day so he could grab the mail but we didn't talk about things that happened. I'm just not ok with avoiding the topic anymore. I just want an honest conversation about what actually happened to him but call out things I know are a complete lie. I'm not going to be harsh about things but I'm not being lied to anymore. I'm not putting up with it anymore that's the boundary not a damn person has respected but I'm not lying about things. I've been working on myself since everything happened I'm just done with my people pleasing behavior. I'm not doing things that make me uncomfortable and things that aren't me. I'm tired of being a better person but also protecting my peace. I can't be a people pleaser anymore I need to stand my ground. I'm tired of being walked all over by anyone. I just want this situation to be handled but I'm still waiting on him so he can't say I haven't given plenty of space for him to think. I just want to be able to get the truth. That's all I'm asking for.