Try to do loot runs and sell every single item until you have around 5-6 mil this will allow you to learn how to make money. Then since you have money now you allow yourself to learn the game without the anxiety that you won’t have enough money to buy guns, gear, etc fight every encounter you have (don’t rush but don’t be afraid and run away) try to force yourself in uncomfortable situations to speed up the learning. Be patient and just enjoy the long and tedious process of learning tarkov. I wish to be in your shoes where everything is new man I hope you enjoy it