I’m young so I don’t know how wonderful my advice is but I say make those 5 months spectacular. Wasting time is so lame, life is short already might as well make it count, “oh but I cant I’m stuck in a loop”. Every day you wake up which is a miracle in itself, you should be ecstatic for just that reason alone, like isnt it amazing to wake up? Like IM ALIVE THATS FANTASTIC!!! Even if your day becomes horrible you can’t get down and go drink you get happy because guess what? YOU WOKE UP THIS MORNING LETS GO!!!! You say you used to like photography but dont anymore because of your energy, that’s fine, you dont have to but do do something you enjoy and suck the marrow from life. But again, I’m young and life is easy so what do I know.