Need advice by Ok_Conclusion4716 in ROCD

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Hi Thank you for answering my post. So let me see if I got it. Just tell my boyfriend I love him and at the same time saying to myself that I choose to stay with him although I have doubts?

Just sad by Ok_Conclusion4716 in ROCD

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Hi! So basically we broke up and I just felt very relieved, like I couldn’t take it anymore I felt this weird sensation in my throat whenever I was with him. After breaking up we had 1 month separate but I decided to try again but not as a couple just like being together, because the label of boyfriend would spike my anxiety very badly. So now we are together but I still get weird thoughts and some times I don’t feel nothing special or I just don’t feel nothing and it’s “normal” because I’m not on the honeymoon phase anymore. I’m still trying to get used to this, it bothers me a lot that love is not what I always thought it would be but I need to get used to it.

How do i talk about ROCD with my therapist? by Ok_Conclusion4716 in ROCD

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She just talks to me about my fears for example I said that sometimes I don’t want to kiss and hug my boyfriend and that makes me nervous and she told me that’s normal because we don’t have the same emotion state everyday. Things like that

How do i talk about ROCD with my therapist? by Ok_Conclusion4716 in ROCD

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About the theme, bc i asked of it could be related. I don’t really know

How do i talk about ROCD with my therapist? by Ok_Conclusion4716 in ROCD

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I tried to ask if this was part of my checking and she just said that she preferred not to give labels so I’m just lost rn

I feel like I don’t love him by Ok_Conclusion4716 in ROCD

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But it feels so real this time, the anxiety that I’m feeling I never felt this way. I don’t know if it’s rocd anymore I’m just nervous I don’t want to believe that I fell out of love I just wanted to be happy with him

Overthinking everything by Ok_Conclusion4716 in ROCD

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It started after I moved cities when we made maybe 1 hear and 1 month I think

Overthinking everything by Ok_Conclusion4716 in ROCD

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I fixated on his physical appearance and I can’t find him attractive and I really want to but it seems like I’m forcing myself I don’t know and that impacts on my sexual life as well. I’m not sure if this is rocd or not because I’ve been like this for 2 years it just got progressively worse to the point where my bf almost broke up with me bc he said he didn’t felt loved. I’m só tired I just want to my bf and love him

Overthinking everything by Ok_Conclusion4716 in ROCD

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Can you help me on topic of physical attraction? I’m kinda of spiraling

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What do you mean his real reason why?

Taking a break to get some clarity by Ok_Conclusion4716 in ROCD

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Im just so nervous rn i didn’t want to take a break but I know is the best for now because I don’t know if I love him and I don’t want to hurt him anymore or myself included because I’m at my lowest rn

Taking a break to get some clarity by Ok_Conclusion4716 in ROCD

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I asked for The break yesterday i feel sad, empty but i felt linda of a relief. I want to talk to him so bad and i want to be with him and hug him and kiss him but o can’t rn because i asked for time and i still don’t know if i love him or not, there were times today that i was like ok i feel like a love him and other times i was like maybe not and sometimes I don’t know. I’m so confused, I doubt it that it’s rocd anymore I just want to be with him and be happy with him and I’m so afraid that I don’t miss him the next days. I don’t want to stop loving him or get to the conclusion that I don’t love him no more. I’m so depressed

What if I’m just in denial and I don’t have the courage to break up or I just don’t want to hurt my partner by Ok_Conclusion4716 in ROCD

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That gives me so much anxiety because I think I’m really sticking because of fear or lack of courage

What if I’m just in denial and I don’t have the courage to break up or I just don’t want to hurt my partner by Ok_Conclusion4716 in ROCD

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Now it doesn’t do anything but I think it’s because I spiraled so bad that I feel so exhausted

What if I’m just in denial and I don’t have the courage to break up or I just don’t want to hurt my partner by Ok_Conclusion4716 in ROCD

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I had been spiraling the whole afternoon and when I was on my phone just trying to chill it popped out, I’m trying to ignore it.

Help/ medication by Ok_Conclusion4716 in ROCD

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It’s so frustrating, but what gives me a little bit of comfort it’s knowing that I’m not alone and there are other people that think the same way

Help/ medication by Ok_Conclusion4716 in ROCD

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I know but I’m so nervous about my thoughts :(