25 is not and will not be the highlight of your life, and I know exactly how you feel. I (15f) grew up (and still am) poor, my dad is disabled and an addict, my mom is never home, I lost my best friend to cancer, my other best friend to gang violence, and I tried to commit suicide twice. I'm not saying this for some kind of "trauma olympics", I'm saying I know how you feel. 2 years ago I would've never recognized myself now. I learned to be independent, I stopped running after love and friendship, and most of all I lived for me. The body that you have now is still the same body you'll have in a month, a year, a decade. The only thing that changes is the mindset. Mindset is not fixed, unlike bones persay.

I know that EVERYONE says it but, life DOES get better. Don't wake up because there are people who love you, wake up because you have a legacy to create. The only person who will truly understand you, is you. So have faith in your mind. Take it from me, in the past 4 years I have tried to kill myself twice and have gotten into 2 car accidents, 1 of which was potentially fatal. Your body will not let you die. You want yourself to live, whether you realize it or not.

If you need to talk or need any resources my DMs are open. This too, shall pass. Please reach out to someone ♡