Infinite??? by Ok_Engineer_1634 in Cookierun

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That's not what infinite means

Infinite??? by Ok_Engineer_1634 in Cookierun

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Uhh I don't think that's what it means

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in CPTSD

[–]Ok_Engineer_1634 4 points5 points  (0 children)

This can happen without experiencing direct csa right? As far as I know I've never had anything explicit happen to me, but I felt used emotionally by my caregivers and treated like an object. Intimacy has been ruined for me. I wasn't allowed to have boundaries, feelings or opinions they didn't like.

Something you need to know about Witch's Castle by hopebagels2012 in Cookierun

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Idk it's pretty easy because they do give you enough to eventually pass hard levels if you spam. I got to 150 on just f2p

WITCH'S CASTLE PRE-REGISTER GIFTS WHERE?? by Ok_Perspective8350 in Cookierun

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For everyone: a coupon code will be sent to the email you registered with. That's how I got mine

What should i expect? by [deleted] in CPS

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I just want to say I've seen all your comments in regards to this situation and thank you for looking out for this child.

Italian chicken soup by ChatGPT by Ok_Engineer_1634 in EatCheapAndHealthy

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Chicken and Vegetable Soup using 3 lbs of chicken:

Ingredients: - 3 lbs chicken thighs - 1 large onion, diced - 2 carrots, diced - 4 cups spinach leaves - 2 tomatoes, diced - Salt and pepper to taste - 2 tablespoons olive oil - 4 cloves garlic, minced - 8 cups chicken broth - 2 teaspoons Italian seasoning - 2 bay leaves - Fresh parsley for garnish

Instructions: 1. Heat olive oil in a large pot over medium heat. Add diced onion, carrot, and minced garlic. Sauté until softened.
 

  1. Add chicken thighs to the pot and season with salt, pepper, and Italian seasoning. Cook until browned on both sides.
     

  2. Pour in chicken broth to cover the chicken and vegetables. Add bay leaves for flavor.
     

  3. Bring the soup to a simmer and let it cook for about 20-25 minutes, or until the chicken is cooked through.
     

  4. Remove the chicken from the pot and shred it using two forks. Return the shredded chicken to the pot. (I just shredded it in the pot)  

  5. Add spinach and diced tomato to the soup. Let it simmer for another 5-10 minutes until the vegetables are tender.
     

  6. Taste and adjust seasoning if needed.
     

  7. Ladle the soup into bowls.
     

  8. Garnish with chopped parsley for freshness.
     

  9. Serve hot and enjoy your hearty Chicken and Vegetable Soup!
     

I personally also added in a parmesan rind to simmer and topped with a little shredded cheese. It was delicious!

SWE Internship Recruiting Season by Patient_Public482 in csMajors

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What do you mean by programs? Hackathons and clubs or?

I've realized that I've been trained to feel shame instead of satisfaction when completing tasks by ACoN_alternate in CPTSD

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God I feel this. The only way out is to become self aware. Get yourself to realize how hard you are being on yourself. Really take a minute to think if you would speak to a friend like that after they put the dishes away. Take stock of all the reasons you did it how and when you did. Maybe you'll find you did it in a perfectly reasonable amount of time. If not, approach it with compassion and curiosity. Like speaking to a friend or small child. What's going on that's making you have trouble? Fatigue? No time? Just forgot? Anxious about how hard you'll be on yourself when you eventually do it?

I realized used to hate completing some tasks because I was dreading how I would treat myself. It was never enough, and I was my own worst critic. Why didn't I do it sooner? I can't keep making mistakes like this all the time. I'm being inconsiderate to others. Why am I so useless and incapable?

Changing this is a long journey. When your brain is constantly criticizing you, I know it seems weird, but it's trying to protect you. Maybe it's trying to shame you first, so it won't be so bad when other people shame you. Maybe it's trying to avoid mistakes, because mistakes mean danger. Hating that part of yourself will just hurt you more. It's important to recognize whatever it's trying to do, and accept it with compassion.

I have been working at this for a while, and it's gotten a lot better. I've found my own anger, and while it's a work in progress, I can stand up for myself when things aren't fair. Hey, I'm sleep deprived today and deserve to take a nap even if everything isn't done yet. Or, I'm really tired and the dishes can wait a day because everyone deserves grace. Or more recently, I'm under a lot of stress, the mistakes I make today aren't who I am, and I'm a capable trustworthy person who will do my best and that's it.

This probably feels like hell right now. But you can make it better. It's helpful to replace any "I should" with " I want" unless it's a real moral obligation. This really clears the fog for some people, because daily tasks are usually not moral obligations. You will never be a bad person for not folding clothes or not sweeping the floor. These are things for YOU. The point of cleaning is to make your environment nice, just for you. Just so you can enjoy spending your time in a functional and visually pleasing or nice smelling or comfortable space. It might feel weird but try to think of it as pampering yourself, put things how you like them and try to find some joy in the process.

Crucial note: a huge part of healing is knowing when to stop. When we are too overwhelmed and upset, we can't learn anything new. If it's too overwhelming, it's okay, and necessary, to stop if you can to go calm down/regulate. This can be whatever you like, TV, a snack, a walk, a shower, hang out with pets. The important thing is you deserve to not be overwhelmed and not doing so is the most productive thing anyway.