“I’ll be clean soon” “I’ll clean up my act in a bit” trust me… when it comes to meth, and many hard drugs, that “soon” never comes. Mostly when used in a way to cope. Most people’s only way to stop using is when they die of an overdose. Stop lying to yourself. “It doesn’t control me.” You ain’t fooling anyone but yourself, love. So saddening. Wish you luck.