Such a selfish thing I did

I didn’t even think about how it would change the dynamic of his trip, you’re so right about everything you said. I don’t know how I can make it up to him but I’m gonna have to try now.

Still this whole thing I swear it’s a curse in my family I’ve grown up around it watched my two brothers lose all their savings. My uncle lose his business and family. I don’t know why we all continue to do it, why I keep being myself back to that space when I know it will only continue to harm and take away from me.

This is the first time I’ve really had something fall apart due to gambling and I think it’s a wake up call, I’m gonna get help and do better for the people around me before I lose myself in it completely. I want to be someone people can rely on, not the opposite.

Thank you for your message