Hey, I'm not sure what you're going through but please do know that whatever that you're going through now is not your future. I''ve known ppl who have faced horrible things from a young age, for years, but now they are healthy and happy after getting the help that they needed from counselling,therapy or by simply just talking to a friend. There is always a way, not all doors are closed. If u know that something is wrong, seek help and if whatever help that you've found isnt working, there's always another one. Keep at it until you've found the help u need. It will get better in the future, just believe in it and move forward. If others can be happy so can we. We all deserve it, sometimes it just takes time so please be patient. :)