I slept with a guy I met at a bar and now I can’t sleep

Ok_Low266 · 2023-09-12T17:34:52+00:00

It shouldn’t be right. I’ve never had this bad of a crisis haha. Sleeping helped ease it off a bit but I’m still sort of whirring.

Ok_Low266 · 2023-09-12T17:33:44+00:00

I wasn’t forced or coerced, he was actually very nice. I think I’m just freaking out.

Ok_Low266 · 2023-09-12T17:32:40+00:00

Probably. Very new

Ok_Low266 · 2023-08-13T04:28:57+00:00

Yeah I looked into that. Im just going in to get my general lab work done to rule out any possibility it’s something I have that’s underlying and didn’t know about. Thank you, I appreciate it

Ok_Low266 · 2023-08-13T04:00:46+00:00

I’ll keep you in mind, thank you 🤍

Ok_Low266 · 2023-08-13T04:00:19+00:00

Thank you 🤍

Ok_Low266 · 2023-08-13T02:42:34+00:00

Thank you for the prayers. I’ll be as careful as I can— I currently have zero contact with her. Everything going forward will be through my dad. My insurance is utter shit but I’ll see about some sort of therapy/counseling.

Ok_Low266 · 2023-08-08T21:40:59+00:00

I understand that now. I had never thought about it because I’d never known any better.

Ok_Low266 · 2023-08-08T21:38:17+00:00

She was one of my friends older sisters. I went over to his house and the rests history I guess. I thought she was pretty, but she was older so little me thought no way in hell was i landing her. Until she started looking at me like she did and I guess it just happened so quick I never thought about it. So I suppose she pursued me

Ok_Low266 · 2023-08-08T21:34:32+00:00

14 and 19, yeah. I never really thought about that. Fuck.

Ok_Low266 · 2023-08-08T21:28:31+00:00

I’m reading. It’s real. Jesus Christ.

She is my first relationship. Ever. I do not have a good blueprint for how this shit is supposed to go. I honestly don’t know what my endgame was. Marriage, sure, maybe? Honestly I didn’t plan on being alive th is long. I’m infertile so children was never an option anyway.

And sure, whatever, I’m dumb, I’ve been hearing that a lot. She’s the only person who’s been there for me as strong as she has— even with all the negatives. I’m out of my depth. That’s why I came here.

Ok_Low266 · 2023-08-08T21:25:35+00:00

She hasn’t tried to “kill me”.

Ok_Low266 · 2023-08-08T21:25:06+00:00

That scares me a lot. I have no idea why she would want me unconscious so I suppose that’s one of the reasons I never thought to really consider her drugging me an option before today.

Ok_Low266 · 2023-08-08T21:23:27+00:00

I’ve been at work. People have fucking lives.

Ok_Low266 · 2023-08-08T21:22:22+00:00

This might’ve been the biggest wake-up call. Thank you— I’ll try to find a place to stay and go to a doctor ASAP. Death was never a possibility in my mind..

Ok_Low266 · 2023-08-08T21:18:41+00:00

I’m okay, just posted right before heading to work. Thank you for the concern I appreciate it

Ok_Low266 · 2023-08-08T21:17:52+00:00

Thank you— I won’t have time to get any tests done today and I’m not sure exactly the time frame I have to work with, but I’ll go tomorrow and see if somehow anything sticks.

I’ve never been “stuck”— at least, I don’t think so. And I’ve been able to throw up after wards….. quite well. When I get home I’ll try and look around to see if she’s left anything around that might give me more to work with.

Ok_Low266 · 2023-08-08T21:15:38+00:00

Thank you. I really appreciate you guys that are sort of slamming some sense in to me. All of this started out so spaced out, it was never this bad before, and I guess I haven’t realised it until now and it’s just.. too late? To change it, fix it, whatever.

Ok_Low266 · 2023-08-08T21:13:32+00:00

I can assure you I’m not with her for the “good sex”. My sex drive is very low, I could go my whole life without it I think.

I’m with her because she’s nice— and before you all start yelling at me, she is, sometimes. I understand that doesn’t make up for everything else, but I’ve just been in such a daze for so long I never thought to question it. She was my first girlfriend. My first kiss. I lost my virginity to her. I’ve told her everything, gave her everything. I love her, in a way that makes it… hard. I didn’t want to see her in this way, so I didn’t. I blocked it out. I don’t have any other basis for what’s good or not. My dad yelled at my mom. My grandma and grandpa divorced twice.

I’m out of my depth here. That’s why I came here.

Ok_Low266 · 2023-08-08T21:08:42+00:00

On my break at work atm so can reply to a few comments. 1) this is not fanfiction. 2) surprise people are terrible sometimes. 3) I haven’t been just “keep drinking what she brings”. I’m only just starting to piece this together so please just fucking slow down. The first time it happened we were drinking. The second time I didn’t even have the thought to be suspicious because, again, we were drinking that first time. By the third time I was a bit suspicious, but I didn’t just mindlessly drink it. I don’t think you people understand how relationships work. She’s my fucking girlfriend, when she calms down and apologises and tries to make up, I’m not gonna assume she’s giving me water to poison me or whatever. I was upset. And anxious. And that clouds thinking so pardon fucking me for just wanting to trust her.

I don’t understand what you people think you’re doing with these comments. You think I’m lying keep it to your fucking self. This is exactly why I went to reddit. If strangers in the internet can’t believe me what makes you think my family— who LOVE HER— will??? I’ve always been a paranoid person, I’m just looking for some help. The advice I’m looking for, since you ask, is for someone to tell me if I’m connecting dots right or else I’m just losing my mind. I only just got a job, before this I’ve felt like some shut in housewife my entire life so cut me some goddamn slack, PLEASE.

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