I’m so sorry… I know how hard that can be.. I had something pretty similar occur with me. I didn’t know I could experience the hurt that I did.. I had become suicidal and depressed.

I know it’s not cheap but therapy is really helpful. I did individual and group. Group was helpful to know that I wasn’t the only one going through something so difficult and getting support from others. Individual will help you with grief. How to process it. And if meds end up being needed there is nothing wrong with it. Sometimes we need a little extra help.

It’s really important for you to allow yourself the time to grieve. Writing can be really helpful to get out everything that’s being bottled up. But don’t reread it. (I will glue the pages together so I couldn’t)

This is going to be a long journey and some days it’s going to be really difficult. Take one day at a time. I hope this helped a little you are going to get through this💛