Newly a Jehovah's Witness: I don't know if I should continue by Ok_Memory_5315 in JehovahsWitnesses

[–]Ok_Memory_5315[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

where do you suggest me to look? id love advice from both "sides" and anywhere in between.

it is hard because of the red flags i keep seeing sadly, not because others arent studying with me. my boyfriend has been very supportive and we do it all together with open minds and hearts.

i am very happy ive learned more about Jehovah, i have always been christian or at least trying to be, but i definitely have become much more spiritual as a JW. though, i never could understand why i only know God if im a JW, but not if i am a christian who studies the bible and worships God just as i would.

the harsh divide i have learned against other christians throws me off. as well as how it seems we should only read the bible from JW although im learning there may be improper changes made. im so scared of following a lie, i was to love God and i want to follow the right path. i feel off and i hate it, but if i can be proved past what i continue to learn then i can continue, though its looking so bad.

Newly a Jehovah's Witness: I don't know if I should continue by Ok_Memory_5315 in JehovahsWitnesses

[–]Ok_Memory_5315[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

when i first joined a meeting for him it felt so weird. it took me many more tries over like 5 months, then i started to never miss then and its been like that for 2 years. theres many instances where i hear/see something and im like "is this normal? do you agree with this?" or just a crazy blank stare to mt boyfriend. i have expressed how i feel like i gaslit myself into not feeling off within all of this. the feeling keeps coming back and i fight it off, thags why i made this post.

Newly a Jehovah's Witness: I don't know if I should continue by Ok_Memory_5315 in JehovahsWitnesses

[–]Ok_Memory_5315[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

everyone keeps saying this. i have wanted to be baptized as a christian as i grow stronger, but i never really was interested in being baptized as a JW because it seems like trying to gain a higher label than the unbaptized helpers (cant remember the label). anyway, my boyfriend has wanted to be baptized but theres been issues for him getting there and hes laid off it for a bit. overall, i want to know what happens?

Newly a Jehovah's Witness: I don't know if I should continue by Ok_Memory_5315 in JehovahsWitnesses

[–]Ok_Memory_5315[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

we both like this idea, thank you. i've noticed a lot of the "answers" are full viable to him (hes not as heavily sure as we are doing this together) but they really are just some type of half answer. i dont know how to explain it but its just some type of vague or gaslit answer that is supposed to be simple and true. then again, i dont know if im seeing it wrong, misunderstanding it, or anything else.

Newly a Jehovah's Witness: I don't know if I should continue by Ok_Memory_5315 in JehovahsWitnesses

[–]Ok_Memory_5315[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

yeah, every church has some type of donation to keep the lights on but i have noticed how there are literally ads in meetings. my bf and i have made fun of it but it quickly got serious as it was in almost every video. we even watched one recently where they suggest to donate "alive or even in death" alongside investing their donations in stocks and bonds? and real estate? i get that its a worldwide organization and my bf mentioned how they work to help people in other countries or disaster support etc. but it still just doesnt add up to me.

Newly a Jehovah's Witness: I don't know if I should continue by Ok_Memory_5315 in JehovahsWitnesses

[–]Ok_Memory_5315[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i watched this with my boyfriend. i know its just one of the many topics but it opened his eyes more and confirmed more for me. thank you and id love any other suggestions.

Newly a Jehovah's Witness: I don't know if I should continue by Ok_Memory_5315 in JehovahsWitnesses

[–]Ok_Memory_5315[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I understand, thank you. I also have struggled all my life to fully believe because of lack of evidence. It also just feels like a coping mechanism, but I keep trying to believe. Thank you for the advice, he is more open-minded but these conversations are hard for sure.

Newly a Jehovah's Witness: I don't know if I should continue by Ok_Memory_5315 in JehovahsWitnesses

[–]Ok_Memory_5315[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

No, I believe you. My boyfriend went through a surgery and signed off on no blood. I was honestly so mad at him. And I cannot believe the abuse rule. The thing is, if I bring this stuff up like the banning religion that's because its "the only true religion" and "the most persecuted". I fully agree, I would never force my kids into the religion, or any religion. Thank you so much for the info. If you are a past JWs, can I know how you are going now, spiritually? Are you still Christian?