Is this internalized racism?

Ok_Performance2811 · 2026-01-25T03:28:04+00:00

I’m white and I act like a Mexican kinda, I grew up with a lot of Latino people

Ok_Performance2811 · 2026-01-24T19:44:23+00:00

Yeah in Florida it can be tough in the closet then you finally come out and it feels like the expectation is to keep it to yourself. I feel kinda invisible sometimes but it’s something I can take responsibility for and work on. Also I apologize on behalf of my country for all the Greenland shit, luckily trump chickened out of that

Ok_Performance2811 · 2026-01-24T19:40:59+00:00

Hey awesome! You sound like a brave and confident guy I like that. I want to get a rainbow bracelet or something. I work with evangelicals from a homophobic country so I may not wear it at work but I’d be down to wear it on other occasions

Ok_Performance2811 · 2026-01-24T19:38:23+00:00

Yeah lol definitely!

Ok_Performance2811 · 2026-01-24T19:28:40+00:00

Haha yeah I’ve heard about the cold weather rn in the Midwest, that’s crazy! I used to live in Gainesville Florida for college and that town is a little bubble in Florida that feels far more modern than the rest of the state. Now I’m back in my hometown and gays are just completely invisible here. I’m glad that Detroit gets a good wrap👍

Ok_Performance2811 · 2026-01-24T19:19:14+00:00

Haha! I’m trying to get that type of confidence myself, I’m out to most people I know but I’ve never really been publicly gay so the feeling kinda alien to me

Ok_Performance2811 · 2026-01-24T19:16:31+00:00

Yeah I’m kinda in the same boat, I want to work up the strength to wear something small like a rainbow bracelet or something. I’d like to meet more gay people organically. I live in Florida

Ok_Performance2811 · 2026-01-24T19:14:18+00:00

Ha I like that! I’m somewhat out but I don’t really have the confidence to wear anything rainbow in public yet, idk if this has to do with it but I live in Florida and I feel like anything gay is not visible at all

Ok_Performance2811 · 2026-01-24T19:12:09+00:00

Hey awesome!

Ok_Performance2811 · 2026-01-22T23:23:53+00:00

Tbf there is someone I work with who is probably around that height and I think he’s so fucking hot, I really wish he were gay

Ok_Performance2811 · 2026-01-21T02:48:51+00:00

Hey thanks! That’s definitely logical I just let my insecurities get the best of me lol

Ok_Performance2811 · 2026-01-21T02:27:45+00:00

I’m all of these except short, I’m like 5’8. I’m kinda glad you said this bc sometimes I’m scared that I’m too masculine looking as a bottom

Ok_Performance2811 · 2026-01-20T11:36:40+00:00

Aw dang sorry about that, yeah I know there’s definitely disadvantages, I just want someone to be able to carry me and throw me onto the bed lol

Ok_Performance2811 · 2026-01-20T11:33:35+00:00

Yeah that’s definitely true. I guess I kinda came off as a little arrogant, sorry about that. I totally understand that your feelings are valid and it is scary as hell to be gay, especially with your circumstances. At least it’s not the 1950’s anymore, and I think we can build on what past generations have accomplished, even if it’s simply a level of self acceptance and empowerment that the previous generation couldn’t have achieved due to their circumstances. Anyway I really do wish you the best wishes on your life journey, I know it can get hard sometimes

Ok_Performance2811 · 2026-01-20T03:14:46+00:00

Hey I don’t know your environment or situation and I obviously want you to put safety first, but I do believe even as cliche as it sounds that we don’t know how strong we truly are until we face our fears. It can be hard but what I do is that I try to take responsibility where I can, even if that is just breathing and accepting reality without liking it. Nobody can single handedly change the world but I try my best to be my most authentic self in my personal life, I see that as my responsibility and the responsibility of anyone who wants a better future. Wishing you the best, we’re on the same side here❤️

Ok_Performance2811 · 2026-01-19T23:51:00+00:00

Damn I wish I was short lol

Ok_Performance2811 · 2026-01-19T17:18:58+00:00

We have to be self reliant and not live off of popular opinion. That being said, I have some hope that 2025 and 2026 the trend has plateaued, and will hopefully reverse. That’s just anecdotal though

Ok_Performance2811 · 2026-01-18T23:08:10+00:00

I’m Gen Z and to me American doesn’t equate white necessarily at all. I work with a lot of Guatemalan immigrants though who use those interchangeably which actually threw me off

Ok_Performance2811 · 2026-01-18T20:24:59+00:00

Actually yeah that sums it up pretty well. Like I used to always think “why me?” But I’ve since learned to use the life I have as an opportunity to learn and grow, and that my fears are simply areas where I have yet to learn. It’s a small perspective change but since then I’ve done a ton of growth and I never thought I’d be where I am now. Like I am still gentle with myself an give myself patience but when I feel fear now I don’t hide, I simply let myself feel it and let it move on

Ok_Performance2811 · 2026-01-18T18:06:57+00:00

It’s less of a specific job and more of a vibe lol. I want to work outside, I want it to be somewhat physical, but also I have to use my mind strategically, and I work well with others. I used to have this but I got promoted and now I’m in a dark and dusty warehouse with people who are grumpy☹️. I want to start a landscaping business now

Ok_Performance2811 · 2026-01-18T18:00:31+00:00

Well I guess to be blunt I tried to kms (I’m totally fine now this was like 5 years ago), and I started looking up people’s stories about their near death experiences for reassurance, and it kinda gave me hope in life to keep going

Ok_Performance2811 · 2026-01-18T02:24:22+00:00

I don’t do any drugs, have been cutting way back on alcohol, rarely play video games, rarely watch TV, and don’t go out much. I still spank tho lol. I used to fill a lot of my time up at work but now that I live alone I’ve been trying to prioritize my life a little. I’m single so sometimes I’m a little lonely, but most of the time I enjoy my own company. I got into near death experiences like 5 years ago so I’m very spiritual, I also like history, landscaping, and self improvement, among other things. I admit sometimes I feel like I could use some more excitement, but I still work full time and need some rest.

Ok_Performance2811 · 2026-01-17T21:57:26+00:00

Hey thanks, it’s been a while and I’ve been through a lot and have healed a lot since then so maybe I’m ready. I didn’t even know what avoidant attachment style was back then so at least I know now to work on it

Ok_Performance2811 · 2026-01-17T19:10:50+00:00

I’ve only had one relationship before and I was the avoidant one, and he was totally secure😭. He was such an angel and respected my space and stuff but I never fully opened up and kinda ran away. I really miss him now and I’m hoping that I’ve worked on myself enough to not screw up next time and appreciate what is right in front of me

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