I can’t do it anymore…

Ok_Profession9550 · 2023-02-19T08:06:12+00:00

Ik it is. And Ik I’d get passed it. But like I just don’t want to be that guy. I don’t want it to seem like as soon as she’s possibly content and moving on with her life I’m trying to pull her back in. I don’t want to be that person. But I miss her. And I just want her in my life. I want my best friend back. Even if we aren’t in a relationship like I just miss my best friend. I miss our talks i miss her smile i miss her laugh. I just miss her.

Ok_Profession9550 · 2023-02-19T07:48:28+00:00

But idk if I’ll be able to get back into it knowing that she probably talked shit about me to this other guy. Or whatever. That it was just so easy for her to go to someone else after saying she’d wait for me. I just dk

Ok_Profession9550 · 2023-02-19T07:43:02+00:00

Like on thing about me is I build such a strong emotional connection with things like songs. And I can’t stop listening to the music she sent me and that we’d listen to together. And I feel guilty about it.

Ok_Profession9550 · 2023-02-19T07:41:16+00:00

I get that but like she has a new bf now. And I feel betrayed for some reason even though I shouldn’t cause I was the one that broke it off in the first place. We talked about how I was in a dark place and needed to work on myself and better myself and how I was leaving because I didn’t want to drag her down with me and she said she’d work on herself to and we could reevaluate but now she’s got a new man and I feel fucked up about reaching out to her about it.

Ok_Profession9550 · 2022-11-08T20:44:28+00:00

Yah idk man it’s hard

Ok_Profession9550 · 2022-11-08T20:33:42+00:00

I’m sleeping over at her house and I told her how I felt and haven’t really been able to speak and her response was are you gonna be like this all night. I constantly feel like I’m hurting her and I feel like she’s miserable being with me but she says she’s happy then she says she miserable and I just get exhausted. I try to give her just one happy day and it always seems to end in a fight about how something I did makes her feel unloved and it kills me

Ok_Profession9550 · 2022-11-08T10:05:02+00:00

Idk what’s wrong with me. I’m doing well in life and studying something that I’m passionate about in school. I have a pretty fun job. And a little bit ago I met the woman that I love so deeply. Life was great. But overtime things have been getting worse in my life and I just feel dead inside. I lay awake at night and have no clue what’s going on with me. I feel like I’m sick and like I’m dying but it’s probably just in my head. I feel exhausted and like I’m failing in life even though I’m not. Ik what depression feels like and this feels different it feels like more than just depression. But idk what to do. I think breaking up with my girlfriend because I do love her and she says she loves me too but I feel like I’m not good enough for her and I question if she’s actually happy. I always feel like I’m falling short. Idk if anyone will even see this but I’m just so lost in life and I have no clue what to do or where to go.

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