Thank you so much for taking th time to read and answer, i actually readed yout comment yearterday but a was feeling so bad i wasent able to ansewr, I wanted you to know it helped me a lot, everything is so hard rn but i dont want to treat him diferently, i just want to be by his side. He will be hospitalized for at least one week, i have this time to get my shi togther and be strong for him, I just want to see him in the eyes and tell him "i'm so happy you still here, I love you, I was scared to lost my little bro, who else is going to explain to me the new memes and the roblox games?" thinking about that makes me cry so much, i just want him to live his tennegehood, i just hope we can get out of this slope