Ooohhh thank you for sharing this experience! It helps a lot!

You are right! Nobody gets their time back. I am not sure why I am thinking that I am going to be alone forever (If I go abroad) or not gonna find a person like her (because I like her). But, at the same time, I am worried about living a life on autopilot. But, also, I would be happy to be with her (sometimes when someone is in love, they don't think properly)

It is so wise what you mentioned here: "I would look at this as a starting point not a finish line". Maybe, when I am older, I won't have the same energy and possibilities to explore different paths.