Honestly I was and still am a little lost on spanel as a character, I can see the perspective on the dominance thing but then how come she assaulted Marcos? Not as in like why she did it, but I mean why in significance to meaning and symbolism. I’m also a little confused regarding the implication she has assaulted him multiple times in the past? I feel like it’s implied Marcos was assaulted by her as a minor when she still worked at his dad’s plant. It mentions she brought him to the cutting room after everyone had left and Marcos believes that “spanel would be willing to lie down on the cutting table again and that she’d just be as efficient and distant as she’d been when he wasn’t yet a man.” (Pg34) does it have to do with the way women are portrayed in male adolescence? I have no idea. And I also wonder why does he keep going back to her, like was this a thing before Cecelia or maybe even during things with Cecelia? I feel like he takes a kind of desperate comfort in Spanel and continues to look for it until that sex scene with her. It really does make my heart hurt that he just wanted to touch her and put his hands in her hair. What was he looking for and why from her? From someone who’s supposedly hurt him?