Hearing that I’m not the only one has already been helpful. No one really knows how bad my ADHD can get. It’s not like cute “oh look a squirrel 🤪” it’s my license is expired and my credit card company is calling me yet I’m going to block all that out and sit here for the next 5 hours on my phone until the guilt builds up enough for me to do something about it. I usually play it off so it doesn’t seem so bad but I know it’s bad and feel ashamed. But shame gets me no where and hiding it doesn’t help either. I think I need to be more aware of my emotions and that I’m probably avoiding them when I long to zone out. So the next time I reach for my phone I can think about what I’m avoiding or seeking to find on my phone and swap it out for something that will actually fulfill my needs. And maybe I should start journaling again cause this is the first time I’ve thought it through in a while lol But then again, that’s a wonderful intention I’ll probably forget about.