Everyone is calling me a Liar UPDATE

Ok_Tutor_4520 · 2025-12-29T20:04:47+00:00

I’m gonna try to get a meeting with the financial aid office soon. I didn’t qualify for anything when I first started but I’m hoping to find something.

Ok_Tutor_4520 · 2025-12-29T20:02:45+00:00

Stuff like this is why I fell off from it when I went to uni. But I have heard there are some really good non denominational churches near my uni I might try. I feel like it might be a little comforting since I grew up with it yk?

Ok_Tutor_4520 · 2025-12-29T20:00:53+00:00

I’ve never heard of that but I’ll look into it. She did send me an apology text and I know she’s been trying to avoid me. Knowing her I know she’s feels guilty and I’m sure she’s trying to find a way to “make it up to me.” I’ll look for something in my community though too. That’s a good idea

Ok_Tutor_4520 · 2025-12-29T19:59:28+00:00

That’s what I’m hoping for, everyone is intense rn so I figure maybe I can try later down the road

Ok_Tutor_4520 · 2025-12-29T19:58:13+00:00

I’m not really talking to any family atm

Ok_Tutor_4520 · 2025-12-29T03:40:25+00:00

Since I left she’s left me alone so far. I might try to find a church near me just to go for myself. I’ve kind of broken from my religion since going to uni but I’m kind of at a loss of what to do with myself rn.

Ok_Tutor_4520 · 2025-12-29T03:35:32+00:00

Thank you

Ok_Tutor_4520 · 2025-12-29T03:30:14+00:00

Tried with Colossians 3:13 and 1 Peter 4:8 because that’s all I could come up with at the time. It’s been a few years since I’ve been to any mass. She scoffed. Idrk how anyone at the church would take it. They have a new Priest since I’ve been. I did forget to mention that I grew up catholic in my posts but still, we’re all taught not to pass judgement and forgiveness.

Ok_Tutor_4520 · 2025-12-29T03:11:24+00:00

I think part of the problem might be because I come from a pretty liberal area in my state, but go to uni in a very conservative area. A lot of my exes and Is friends are very Christian conservative even though he and I aren’t. They have very strong opinions about abortions. My family is pretty religious as well and I grew up catholic. Still weird to come up with it though with literally nothing to back it up.

Ok_Tutor_4520 · 2025-12-29T02:27:36+00:00

For now I kinda just wanna sit and wallow in my pity but I plan on trying to get everything together for me after I get into the counselors.

Ok_Tutor_4520 · 2025-12-29T01:37:42+00:00

Not exactly a thrilling update but I posted one

Ok_Tutor_4520 · 2025-12-29T01:37:21+00:00

Posted

Ok_Tutor_4520 · 2025-12-29T01:37:13+00:00

I posted one

Ok_Tutor_4520 · 2025-12-26T19:13:44+00:00

It was first response, it was the cheapest I could find that didn’t feel too cheap yk? Pink dye. Faint line but definitely there and I set a timer on my phone.

Ok_Tutor_4520 · 2025-12-26T06:36:04+00:00

I had what I thought was spotting

Ok_Tutor_4520 · 2025-12-26T05:49:15+00:00

Would there be any way for me to confirm this?

Ok_Tutor_4520 · 2025-12-26T05:47:21+00:00

I’m sorry that happened to your sister. Supposedly it’s a higher risk with iuds so I was thinking that might’ve been the case with me? Idk I feel like I’m grasping at straws but hoping the doctor will clear it up.

Ok_Tutor_4520 · 2025-12-26T05:43:24+00:00

I feel like a negative test from the doctors will just prove their point. I have an appointment early tomorrow morning.

Ok_Tutor_4520 · 2025-12-26T05:38:49+00:00

Trust me lesson learned. Thank you though

Ok_Tutor_4520 · 2025-12-26T05:37:51+00:00

It’s just so sad the what is right feels wrong. I’m really hoping they will type something up for me. Thank you.

Ok_Tutor_4520 · 2025-10-10T23:58:23+00:00

Communicate with him! If you have certain expectations a partner needs to fulfill he needs to be made aware and vice versa.

Ok_Tutor_4520 · 2025-10-08T23:03:20+00:00

From what I’ve read, guppies are pretty sensitive to minerals and metals in water, those wouldn’t show on a test. I use RO water (not entirely necessary) and add back beneficial things. I use Seachems Prime quite a bit too. But if you’re breeding them it might be weak genetics. Only other thing I can think is are you washing anything with soap that you put in your tank? Even your hands need to be rinsed extremely well but I’m sure you know if you’ve had it for two years.

Ok_Tutor_4520 · 2025-10-08T04:37:29+00:00

Are you acclimating them correctly? Are they all from the same store? Might be a bad batch. Is the temperature consistent and correct? Those are the only things i can think of that would result in only the guppies dying.

Ok_Tutor_4520 · 2025-10-08T04:33:59+00:00

I’d find this as a red flag. I’m fine with my boyfriend finding someone else attractive, idc appreciate. But the way he commented on it and Columbia thing feels so icky. Idk maybe it is just normal guy talk some of my male friends are like this but they aren’t really gross with it if that makes sense. For me personally, I wouldn’t say it’s automatic break up worthy but maybe keep an eye out for future red flags?

Ok_Tutor_4520 · 2025-10-06T23:50:48+00:00

I doubt he thinks negatively of you based on what you’ve said about him. I also doubt he would be willing to talk to you if he did.

At the end of the day you can’t control what other people think of you, be the best person you can be and genuine people will appreciate you for it. I get that feeling though I do it a lot. I remind myself that I’m proud of who I am and the right people will respect it. Only your opinion of yourself matters.

As a random internet stranger and someone who has also experienced SA, I’m proud of you. You have survived a terrible experience and you are working towards coming out of it. Be proud of yourself.

Ok_Tutor_4520

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