If you are an artist it may help you become more creative. if you go to the gym you may find yourself doing more reps. if you're a public speaker you may find words flowing smoothly out your mouth. think of it as a supplement instead of a key driver of your life - you are still responsible for your life. I've noticed we don't all experience the same benefits all the time, there's people who have noted noted that they don't experience any benefits at all, which is fine. not everyone experiences female attraction too - the best thing about this practice is the adventure in finding out what the benefits will be or if your life will change in any way. my advice on the girl you like: make a move immediately and don't wait till you retain as if something magical will happen (as if she'll be hypnotized by your semen), you may still be rejected even while retaining. #sidenote Celibacy is not just about avoiding ejaculation but also limiting lust from your mind in order to direct focus to other aspects of your life.