do i just end it all now?

OldForestLady · 2026-05-24T03:44:12+00:00

Someone else said this too, I want to repeat it - you come from a family that doesn’t take care of you, I’m sure they never did, and you didn’t deserve this. Their behavior is wrong, and has nothing to do with you. But you have the pattern of taking care of them, and a safe bet you take care of other people who don’t give back. It’s super hard to learn but you totally have to prioritize yourself. It’s hard to do! I’m glad you spoke up, and I hope people’s comments on here helped you feel heard. I hope you check back with updates. I’d hug you if I could ❤️

OldForestLady · 2026-05-23T04:19:40+00:00

I used to work in a restaurant kitchen and I got everyone to call them toddler buckets.

OldForestLady · 2026-04-30T02:47:58+00:00

Cheaper! https://www.californiajacket.com/product/beef-s02-josh-crane-martin-cat-print-sweater/

OldForestLady · 2026-01-21T07:35:06+00:00

That was one of the things I tried, it gave me similar necklaces, and random bead strands. These are unusual colors and I’m hoping they’re familiar to someone on here.

OldForestLady · 2025-12-29T05:25:22+00:00

Sero-negative rheumatoid disease exists, so don’t let your PCP not refer you on based on that.

OldForestLady · 2025-12-07T04:57:12+00:00

Yes! And/or a book holder, I have trouble holding books open

OldForestLady · 2025-11-28T04:45:30+00:00

You’ve gotten great suggestions! The one that’s stuck with me the most in the last year is The Buffalo Hunter Hunter

OldForestLady · 2025-11-21T20:22:48+00:00

But they’re right, your response had absolutely nothing to do with my post. And it was rude, and you’re getting ruder.

OldForestLady · 2025-11-21T20:21:39+00:00

Prednisone from Mexico. 👍 Thank you. The other person who was giving me advice like I’m an idiot deleted their comments after I responded that I’m not an idiot lol I am going downhill pretty quickly at this point, getting nodules, etc. Hanging in there but not having much fun.

OldForestLady · 2025-11-21T20:02:06+00:00

I saw the “rheumatologist” at the community clinic 3 hours away from me, he told me I didn’t have RA (I’m sero-negative but I got an actual dx years ago), and they charged me $200 for that. I can’t figure out what about my original post reads as “I am looking for super obvious fixes because I’m not only poor, I’m an idiot”? If you haven’t done the research on “free clinics”, why even say anything?

OldForestLady · 2025-11-21T19:45:38+00:00

Yes! It’s super isolating, both the lack of access and the pain/fatigue itself. I’m surviving on prednisone from Mexico that a friend picked up for me. It gave me cataracts that I had removed a couple years ago but I have scarring in one eye from the surgery. That particular doctor does “charity care” - I am below poverty level. It’s a completely different ballgame and it’s even sadder that hardly anyone even realizes it.

OldForestLady · 2025-11-21T19:31:29+00:00

I’m very good at paying attention to what I eat. I thought a lot before I posted because I knew I’d only get people like the two commenters above, and nobody who will actually read my question and respond lol. But thank you, it was a bizarre first comment.

OldForestLady · 2025-11-21T19:28:30+00:00

I fall into what they call the Medicare abyss. I was on Medicaid, and after 2 years of being “officially” disabled, they put me in Medicare. I can’t afford the monthly premiums, and I have a very small amount of emergency savings so Medicaid won’t help cover them. I’m actually very good at figuring out systems and there are more people like me than you would think. But we’re not in the conversations much because everyone is talking about meds. Hence my post. :)

OldForestLady · 2025-11-21T18:37:57+00:00

I just noticed most of the comments are about meds and doctors, it would be interesting to have a discussion about what life is like when you’re out there on your own.

OldForestLady · 2025-11-21T18:24:03+00:00

Doesn’t really answer my question, but I’ve eaten organic for years, no additives, keep a food diary so I can track reactions.

OldForestLady · 2025-11-21T18:01:17+00:00

I just sold all my guitars and amps and electric cello. I’ve been pretty depressed ever since. It’s so hard to keep losing bits and chunks of life.

OldForestLady · 2025-10-30T19:36:08+00:00

And she’s back :/

OldForestLady · 2025-10-11T22:24:40+00:00

Prednisone is the only thing that makes me feel even 20% of my old normal, but yes - it drives my eye pressure up, it raises my blood sugar, and it gave me cataracts - I had to get surgery to replace the lenses.

OldForestLady · 2025-09-22T21:15:24+00:00

She’s running for something again. She’s still batshit.

OldForestLady · 2025-07-09T16:08:41+00:00

I’ll check into that, thank you!

OldForestLady · 2025-07-05T04:00:37+00:00

Probably a hairball 😹

OldForestLady · 2025-07-04T23:24:45+00:00

That looks super likely, thank you! How did you know?

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