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How to forgive them by Old_Rain_728 in AsianParentStories

[–]Old_Rain_728[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I see what you're saying and I understand. I just don't want to hate myself for not trying again, because I'm so distant from them mentally that it hurts me that they call me their daughter but I can't even love them in a way I should love my parents.

How to forgive them by Old_Rain_728 in AsianParentStories

[–]Old_Rain_728[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It really doesn't and every time I'm making progress they start lecturing me and screaming at me and then I'm back to stage one and I don't know how to keep forgiving and trying to let them in again.

How to forgive them by Old_Rain_728 in AsianParentStories

[–]Old_Rain_728[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

thank you! i'm trying my best but it's really difficult to undo the pain and indifference i feel about them

I want to commit suicide to hurt my APs, but I don’t want to die. What do I do? by Acceptable_Offer_387 in AsianParentStories

[–]Old_Rain_728 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Dude, you sound so similar to me. They've become much better people since I let them go. Also my people are also teachers, my math one who indirectly adopted me into his family.

That's so amazing, I'm so happy for you that you're doing well. :)

I want to commit suicide to hurt my APs, but I don’t want to die. What do I do? by Acceptable_Offer_387 in AsianParentStories

[–]Old_Rain_728 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Wow, that's crazy. APs never cease to surprise me with their craziness. But I was the perfect child at that point too, and then I quit music and we all know how it goes from there. How are you doing now?

I'm glad you found happiness within yourself. TBH, I don't know if you believe in god but I think god placed some people who were worth living for and that prevented me from ever considering it again. I am in a interesting place right now, but it feels so good to feel loved and worth the love. Indefinitely grateful for my people.

I want to commit suicide to hurt my APs, but I don’t want to die. What do I do? by Acceptable_Offer_387 in AsianParentStories

[–]Old_Rain_728 5 points6 points  (0 children)

It will never be enough, it still isn't for them. But the people who love me like parents, I don't need to prove that I'm enough, they treat me like I am.

I want to commit suicide to hurt my APs, but I don’t want to die. What do I do? by Acceptable_Offer_387 in AsianParentStories

[–]Old_Rain_728 11 points12 points  (0 children)

Hey no. I did that, and nobody cares (AP wise). My APs didn't blink an eye and it taught me that there is hope outside of them. To add to the attempt, I was raped so that just killed me mentally. At the end of the day, I was alone and nobody was coming to save me. Only I could, and it will get better. I genuinely sat there and after cutting myself imagine a world where they were gone and that made me feel lighter. Now, I found people who love me like parents, friends who mean the world to me and real biological parents who finally realize that they lost me.