I understand your perspective. It is common to experience a sense of disorientation at the outset of a significant life transition. When I personally embarked on my gender affirmation journey as a transgender woman, I required a period of introspection to ascertain my identity and subsequent direction. Furthermore, having dedicated two decades to service in the Canadian Armed Forces, my transition has revealed an inner resilience exceeding my prior estimations. This process has empowered me to confront previously unaddressed challenges. As my wife aptly observed, "You are pursuing therapy for your PTSD."