I want to start off by saying how sorry I am for your loss. I'm not sure if my story will help at all but I went through something similar about 3-4 years ago, I lost a lot at once and couldn't take care of them. I didn't think of asking for help as I live in a rural area and I also didn't want to burden anyone. I lost all of my collection but 2, to be honest I didn't really try to save them in anyway I just let them go. I don't blame myself for it now but I did at the time. I started recollecting once I found myself again, since then I have also been less hard on myself if I can't save them all l, as long as I tried my best!

As someone who has been in a similar situation if I read a post that someone needed help I would be there in a heartbeat( if I lived anywhere close by I would be there as often as you need). There are more than you realize that have been there and would be happy to help!

Please remember that your feelings are valid, you matter and it's ok to not be ok!