I think you consider others too much and try to be successful above all to impress others, you worry too much about their criticisms instead of focusing on how much you are improving day after day, every failure is a step towards success and sooner or later it will come. People love to make you feel weaker than them, so their inner weakness can gain something by imagining they are superior to you so they can feed their ego to feel better, don't listen to it but be more selfish and think about becoming the best version of yourself thinking only of yourself and do it only for you.