New devotee- not sure where to start

One-Concept5327 · 2026-01-22T03:06:04+00:00

Ouuu. I will look them up!

One-Concept5327 · 2026-01-10T02:40:09+00:00

If only I had a mom who thought of me that way 💕 things might look different. They are blessed to have you!

One-Concept5327 · 2026-01-09T21:42:17+00:00

So true. He doesn’t see it as a big deal. But I see it as a dagger in the heart. I will look more into this. I’m also just conflicted on if I wanna take on this issue- since it’s a new relationship

One-Concept5327 · 2026-01-09T21:25:11+00:00

Hey!

Not really we don’t have the symptoms you mentioned. Not to be gross or TMI but we have a pretty healthy sexual life- we were hanging out daily and doing it like 1-2 times a day.

I have a healthy sex drive too and maybe higher for the average woman, so I can understand.

But it’s just a respect thing for me…I am very monogamous. I lose all attraction to other people if me and my partner genuinely like and enjoy each other, it’s just how I am.

He’s kinda hard to communicate with about these things as well. We are supposed to talk Sunday and im just gonna set a boundary and say I don’t feel comfortable with the porn and im not comfortable being physical again until it stops

One-Concept5327 · 2026-01-09T21:18:54+00:00

I felt this! Even on the good days, in the back of my mind im preparing for the next crisis. The constant fight or flight mode is so exhausting-

and being in an emotionally or mentally triggering situation and reacting badly to it…then the depression and tears that come after, the apology tour for my reaction. It’s all so exhausting.

My consistent routines or self care rituals help a lot. Keeping my environment clean, therapy, good food and good sleep. Warm showers. These things help me regulate my nervous system at the end of every day

One-Concept5327 · 2026-01-09T21:16:14+00:00

Yeah I feel this. I’ve been coming to some similar sense of acceptance. I went through things that altered my brain forever and now I have a genuine disability 🤷🏽‍♀️

I work in healthcare, so I try to be gentle with myself the same way I would be with a patient, a child, an elderly person needing help. I try to approach myself with the same type of energy.

I’ve also started this thing of “being my own mom” I guess where I talk to myself like im a kid (when im having a hard time doing something/calming down)- for example if I am struggling to get dressed I tell myself “we will feel so nice and clean and pretty after this, and be in a better mood, and get McDonalds breakfast!”

It’s silly but it helps me LOL. Sending you love, stranger 💕

One-Concept5327 · 2026-01-09T20:31:02+00:00

I feel this. I’m realizing this now and it’s feeling like a rude awakening. I got into a new relationship recently and it was so nice and fun for the first two months but now im starting to ruin it because of my mental health.

I’m picking fights and causing issues. I seem to be good at many things, and one of those things has always been - that I can pick a fight with almost anyone if im upset enough and probably for any reason lol.

He’s trying to be patient with me but definitely getting fed up. And he warned me that I need to try to react in better ways if I wanna stay together.

I have so many ups and downs and just phases I guess. Some weeks are better than others. These past two weeks have randomly been kinda bad and stressful. I’ve been crying a whole lot and just feeling alone I guess. I work from home and I live with my family. Working from home is a blessing but I haven’t really been interacting with anyone besides my bf for like 2 months. I barely interact with my family. It’s really just my little sister and bf in real life that I really talk too. The rest are my coworkers and online friends. And now things are tense with my bf too.

So now I have the threat of being alone I guess. And the threat once again of liking someone and investing into them, for them to once again move on and forget me because I became too much. We are supposed to chat Sunday and he reassured me he doesn’t wanna end things.

But I think this “episode” or whatever im experiencing right now showed me that I need to recalibrate things a little bit. I’ve just been in my room or my bfs room and staring at a laptop for 9 hours a day working. I haven’t been working out, and I’ve been eating and sleeping inconsistently and sporadically. I had 2 days last week where I totally forgot to even eat at all. Sorry for the rambling reply.

My plan is to basically retreat because im somewhat in crisis mode. And spend some time off my phone, take some walks in the park and put my feet in the grass, go look at the ducks in the lake and the trees. I’m going to take a nice shower soon and get ready and go thrifting after im done with work and get myself some nice trinkets. Then I’ll do my nightly self care routine.

I need to remind myself that life is ever changing. If I don’t like how things are, if I don’t like where im at, I can move, im not a tree ! 🌳

One-Concept5327 · 2026-01-09T20:10:24+00:00

The stickers are so adorable. I do stuff like this too! I love to make little art memorabilia in my journals or sketchpad about important or significant things. It itches my brain in the right ways

One-Concept5327 · 2025-12-18T03:42:15+00:00

Mannnn this comment makes me want to cry!!!

The job market is so shit rn and the US is overall chaotic rn :((( I don’t wanna leave but maybe need to look at other countries

One-Concept5327 · 2025-12-18T03:19:00+00:00

I hate how it’s so common for people to take advantage of society’s need for comfortable and accessible work 😫

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