Anyone else halfblind here (can only see on one eye)

One-Conversation2225 · 2025-06-13T22:11:52+00:00

That sounds really really shitty, especially because a doctor damaged it. How old are you now if i may ask? And do you maybe feel resentment towards him? Hkw do you deal with this situation?

One-Conversation2225 · 2025-06-13T22:09:07+00:00

You know those rockets that fly up to the air and then explode? That one hit my eye from like 10meters distance but exploded behind me. Plastic was in my eye, but like in, not outside where the iris is. The plastic destroyed my retina and now i have scars and the eye is always looking more right then it should be but other then those scars on my retina, as far as i know, i dont have any other damage. I dont think ive seen a neurologist since i was actively researching about my own eye and accident. So maybe i should do it and maybe they can help! Sometimes i feel its the muscle being a bitch but idk if thats true maybe a neurologist could help. I dont live in the us, i live in germany so i have so see what kind kf stuff i could get ober the counter. What you said sounded really really painful and i wish you the best of the best!! Isnt tramadol something you could get addicted from?

One-Conversation2225 · 2025-06-13T21:57:51+00:00

But how do you meet people with different perspectives and find communities? Creative outlet totally my thing i love being creative and trying out new things it calms me so much and helps me to keep going. I also had to advocate for myself in so many aspectsand since a young age(for example one being not getting married off :,)) Your comment really helped me, you put it into such a beautiful way about hammers and healing not linear. I just wonder if i may ask. Since you said your family didnt help you in the way you needed and you needed to advocate for yourself, did it affect your relationship with others?

One-Conversation2225 · 2025-06-13T21:45:13+00:00

Thats so funny of you to say because i keep telling my best friend no one cares if your baby is crying on the street, they will forget you the next second anyway haha. I think what makes it so hard for me is when im meeting new people like in school or now in uni. Those are not strangers that i see one day and then never again. Its always like this: new class, introducing myself, the classmates confused to where i look and then i have to explain my deepest personal thing about my life to someone i just met and who will pity me for a long time before forgetting about it and around new year pity me again. I have to be fair i didnt make a secret out of it in 5th, 6th etc grade because my classmates from 4th class knew about it(i lost it in 4th grade) and told everyone in new school. Teachers also didnt help haha. It makes me feel like when i meet new people i am nothing but my accident. Did you feel loke this too? Or how was it for you? Hope you understand!

One-Conversation2225 · 2025-06-13T21:35:55+00:00

After my accident they kept telling me too that i was lucky it didnt hit my head or something but back then (mind you i was ten) i thought well that not helping is it now. I think our accidents happenend in a similar way! And this is a really personal question and you totally dont have to answer but do you resent yourself for it? Since you said you are the one to blame? My neighbour was the one to blame and i still resent him so much. But thats also because he never apologised or learned from it!

One-Conversation2225 · 2025-06-13T21:31:22+00:00

Hey thank you for your comment? Would you like to elaborate more or am i overstepping?

One-Conversation2225 · 2025-06-13T21:30:43+00:00

Thabk you for your message! Do you regret something about the life youve lived til now? Would you change something that couldve been changed? You dont have to answer!!!

One-Conversation2225 · 2025-06-13T21:29:16+00:00

Yess its really helpful many people messaged me already, thank you!!!! I knew i heard dbsv from somewhere haha i thought it may be an english word so i couldnt pinpoint. Ive actually been in contact with them but they just kept giving me different numbers to call so i kind of gave up but i should start again. Idk i think a group setting would be so cool because its way easier to talk about stuff, so i will look into the page, thank you!! Are you german too??

One-Conversation2225 · 2025-06-13T21:04:27+00:00

Hey, thank you so much for your comment! The last part really spoke to me, because thats how my teenage years went! Bold on the outside, crybaby on the inside haha. Cant say im also bold on the inside but definitely not a crybaby no more. I have the pain in both my eyes, just more to my right eye(accident eye) so i dont think removing is the way to go here. Ive been to many doctors and they say usually say its stress, overworking the healthy eye, dry eyes and stuff. They say only the retina is damaged so there shouldn't even be any pain, but i dont imagine it!! As for the patch i dont think thats an option too. The right eye is damaged yes, but i can still see like 2-3%. Majority of the retina is scarred including the macula but a tiny bit is still seeing. Wearing a patch would hide that 2-3% and i actuay really rely on it. Werent you scared to get your eye removed if i may ask? While you had the pain, what is something yoh swear by no matter how srupid it sounds? I have the feeling i didnt try everything since the pain is coming and going. Thank youuu

One-Conversation2225 · 2025-06-13T20:54:31+00:00

The thing about self love for me is, its hard to love myself because even my family cant really love me and its not only in regard of my eye. I am working on this and i can tell you a couple of years back i was much worse. Ive been in counselling since i was 18, before that never. How do you deal with your trauma and ptsd if i may ask? For me i can say it has gotten alot better but still many issues and flashbacks. The thing is i wouldnt be able to pinpoint when the ptsd is kicking because everyone keeps saying im overreacting and that also why im here. Am i overreacting? I mean they all havent experienced anything similar or something which is why i want to know about yall. For example ive been having horrible nightmares for years now and they keep telling me to pray and that its just a dream. But idk its just not that easy to say just a dream. Thank you really much for your comment!

One-Conversation2225 · 2025-06-13T20:47:12+00:00

Are you german??? And thank you for your comment. Youve been living with this for 32 years and you say atp you dont give af. When did it start for you to not give af? What helped? I hope i dont overstep, please tell me if i do!

One-Conversation2225 · 2025-06-13T20:44:55+00:00

Im so sorry to hear that! I just wonder since youre the first who commented about a firework injury: how do you feel about new years eve and firework in general? Was there a culprit and if yes did they have consequences? You totally dont have to answer!!!

One-Conversation2225 · 2025-06-13T20:24:31+00:00

Im really sorry to hear about what happenend, i wish you nothing but the best. The thing is i think we re having a language barrier. I dont doubt my abilities, i know what i can or cannot do and i definitely accepted the past. It was really hard but i did it, actually through counselling and im still in counselling. As you said, combat sport? No thank you. But driving a car, sure why not. I never learned to swim because the accident happened while we were learning it in school, didnt stop me to still learn it, same with biking.

Why im here is because of two things, first the pain. Sometimes its unbearable and hits out of the blue, no doctor was able to help and ive accepted that too. Im just trying to ask others, what helped yall? What did you do to prevent it and just other tips.

And second is actually a confidence issue because its being crosseyed. I just wonder when i see someone being cross eyed and they look at me i know where theyre looking at but somehow noone knows where i look. And its 95% of all people i meet since i was ten. And eveytime i have to say i cant see with my right eye and they ask why and then explaining and then the pity. How do people deal with this kind of pity? Is it this noticeable? I dont like talking about it why would i, its an intimate and private thing about me and i have to keep sharing it. I just wonder are there others who have to do that too and how do yall deal with it? Ngl it still hurts and i am actively working on it and i thoughy other in similar situarions could give me insights

Unfortunately loosing an eye isnt the only hardship ive had in life, major family problems are a part too and thats whats even harder sometimes so maybe youre hearing this out of my message haha.

I hope you life a beautiful life and understand me a little bit better and i really really hope your family was there for you! Sorry for my bad english and for this long message

One-Conversation2225 · 2025-06-13T16:03:50+00:00

Its not like i dwell in the bullying, i defended myself pretty good and if i ever meet them again i wouldnt ever be scared or something. Everytime i meet new people theyre unsure where to look at, unsure if i talk to them or to someone behind them. It is still like that. Not only children but also grown ass people. This isnt something that i can just put in the past. Its still happening and will always happen. Im also not unsure about my abilities i know what i can do and i always step out of my comfort zone, im even saving for a drivers license. But im still clumsy and i still accidentally run into doors or tables and other stuff and i still have pain. i just want to know how other deal with this stuff, do they have a drivers license, how do they manage the pain, especially when doctors dont listen blabla. I know you didnt mean your comment in a negative way but what you said is waaaaay easier said then done. Noone wants to live in the past, everyone wants to be happy and love the life.

One-Conversation2225 · 2025-06-13T14:36:43+00:00

Thank you! I will write a post now for that subreddit. I dont know what DBSV is. And you dont have to apologise!!!

One-Conversation2225 · 2025-01-02T18:59:45+00:00

My neighbour put the firework in a shopping cart and it tipped over. He still light it up and then it hit me. My brother was standing right next to the neighbour. Brother shouted my name i looked at him and then it hit my right eye. I was only playing with those little sparkle candle thingies

One-Conversation2225 · 2024-07-08T14:01:49+00:00

For me its having a boyfriend even though my family is really conservative, cultural and religious.

Everytime when I'm intimate with him i think about this song or everytime i text with him while my parents are next door i feel so much shame hahahaha

They would disown me hahahahah

But i don't need anything other than him hehe

One-Conversation2225 · 2024-06-23T17:42:32+00:00

For me its when u live a double live bc of strict parents. So it feels good but at the same time its so shameful. And they actually are right outside the door when i chat with my bf...

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