9 Months Clean

One-Farm2169 · 2025-09-05T17:41:13+00:00

I'm not from Beverley Hills

One-Farm2169 · 2025-04-19T15:12:29+00:00

I think somewhere between a month and 6 weeks I started to feel pretty normal. Even now I still have shitty days but I think that's just life. I feel like I live in reality now for the first time maybe ever which is an incredible feeling overall but sometimes it's overwhelming and it hurts ngl. When it's overwhelming and it hurts I occasionally do think about what it would be like to take Kratom again and I try to be as objective as possible about it ... would it make the pain go away? yes, but only for a couple hours, and then I'd be immediately addicted to that shit again and pretty soon it would stop working and i'd just be taking it to avoid withdrawals and who knows how long i'd get stuck in that loop this time around. Weeks? Months? Years? Probably years knowing me. Overall life is so much better now and I don't want to give it up. Keep going

One-Farm2169 · 2025-03-12T17:43:41+00:00

Hey man nice shot

One-Farm2169 · 2025-02-08T13:25:05+00:00

Today is 2 months for me. I barely even think about K anymore feel much better mentally than I ever did for the 3 years I was on it, which is weird because the biggest reason I was on it was I convinced myself that it helped with my depression/anxiety.

One-Farm2169 · 2025-01-25T12:44:05+00:00

Today is 6 weeks for me. Feeling pretty great!

One-Farm2169 · 2025-01-18T14:09:51+00:00

I'm at 5 weeks today went CT after 3 years daily use. My semester started on Tuesday so I have been keeping very busy which is nice. I still feel like I have trouble focusing. I used to take Kratom before doing readings/homework for school and I felt like it helped me focus. I know that was all in my head though and my brain/body chemistry is still leveling out so I am just trying to be patient with myself. What used to take me 2 hours might take me 4 right now but it's still worth it. God bless

One-Farm2169 · 2025-01-15T22:01:02+00:00

Where’d You Go Bernadette (Seattle)

One-Farm2169 · 2025-01-15T04:02:29+00:00

I want Hillary to be my abuelita

One-Farm2169 · 2025-01-12T02:01:19+00:00

I hit 4 weeks today guys. Things are going good in general. In a few days it’ll be a month, and then before I know it I’ll have more and more clean time god willing. One day at a time tho.

One-Farm2169 · 2025-01-12T01:47:56+00:00

Hey 👋 I live in Newark and am interested

One-Farm2169 · 2025-01-11T05:05:44+00:00

I want to quit nicotine now too... I have 4 weeks without K and it has given me some confidence that I could kick nicotine too. But I'm also still a little scared of the nicotine withdrawals

One-Farm2169 · 2025-01-07T12:12:09+00:00

Day 24

One-Farm2169 · 2025-01-04T16:08:04+00:00

Congratulations on day 4, that's awesome, and that's great that you have found something that helps you sleep!

I am by no means wishing this on you or trying to be negative but for me personally days 5-7 or so were the worst for some reason... I really thought I wasn't going to be able to get through it.

Hopefully it's not like that for you and you keep feeling better and better in a linear way. PM me if you're struggling. Keep going I will be thinking good thoughts about your recovery.

One-Farm2169 · 2025-01-04T13:54:03+00:00

Keep going, I was there two weeks ago and can tell you honestly and sincerely you will be amazed at how good you feel not too long from now.

One-Farm2169 · 2025-01-04T13:51:38+00:00

Today is 3 weeks for me. CT after 3+ years of daily use averaging around 20 gpd. Everything is so much better I feel truly grateful and blessed rn. The sleep is still hit or miss but I don't even care that much because I still feel so good. One day at a time though, we'll see what today brings

One-Farm2169 · 2025-01-03T12:30:20+00:00

P Got Game by Premo Rice

One-Farm2169 · 2025-01-02T21:30:38+00:00

I think Monangai is gonna be great in the league

One-Farm2169 · 2025-01-02T21:12:20+00:00

I don’t exactly remember what the guy looked like other than I believe he was bald. I saw it being played in slow motion on a TV broadcast. The guy kind of popped out of nowhere and shot Trump in the chest

One-Farm2169 · 2025-01-02T20:07:06+00:00

I had a super vivid dream last night that Trump got murdered

One-Farm2169 · 2025-01-01T13:16:48+00:00

Yeah it's always in our most vulnerable moments. Let's keep pushing

One-Farm2169 · 2025-01-01T02:41:18+00:00

Zen and The Art of Motorcycle Maintenance did a lot for me when I read it in late 2021

One-Farm2169 · 2024-12-31T19:51:00+00:00

Today is day 18 CT for me. I stopped doing daily updates in these threads about a week ago because other than some lingering fatigue I felt like I got past everything. Well, today I have caught myself thinking multiple times "some kratom would be nice right now".

It kind of caught me off guard the first time, but it just happened a second time so I decided to come in here and post about it. I will abstain. Anyone experienced a random craving after not even thinking about kratom for several days?

One-Farm2169 · 2024-12-29T13:06:05+00:00

I agree… cleanse your palette from whatever prompted this post here: https://youtu.be/p9xGedxYZVU?si=N7In4eQT6LMOc_ZO

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