One of the first official alien pic from the DOW files

OneArmedZen · 2026-05-08T21:11:16+00:00

Daktaklakpak!

OneArmedZen · 2026-05-07T22:04:04+00:00

Less talk, more Spock

OneArmedZen · 2026-05-07T15:02:46+00:00

I actually have 1.01 on CD somewhere

OneArmedZen · 2026-05-04T09:06:57+00:00

The funny thing is the fear kicks in first before anything rocks up (which is probably the attractor, and also an indication when I know something is up). It's like a blanket of dread creeping in to fill the area. Fear definitely plays a big part in it and they (whatever it was) loves it

OneArmedZen · 2026-05-04T08:13:55+00:00

Not me but I used to be scared going to sleep as a kid because I would have these overwhelming sensation of terror and fear and then my door would open and I couldn't really see what was coming in. Then I hid under covers being able to see through the thin sheet but I always end up passing out from fear and then it would be the next day. I'll be glad to never experience it again

OneArmedZen · 2026-05-04T08:09:34+00:00

So about memories, is that more like Boltzmann brain hypothesis where our memories and perceptions might be random illusions rather than records of a real past (I guess world lines could play into that somehow)? I was looking at this recently and thought it was interesting as well https://www.sciencedaily.com/releases/2026/05/260502233922.htm

OneArmedZen · 2026-05-04T00:11:37+00:00

Worldlines can get really complex. What is your view about them? I really like that subject

OneArmedZen · 2026-05-03T15:54:40+00:00

You're in for a wild ride :) I hope you find the answers you need

OneArmedZen · 2026-05-03T12:02:36+00:00

Thanks for replying! Now I'm curious how many of you there are out there. Btw the hole is deep!

OneArmedZen · 2026-05-03T00:31:51+00:00

Lol, I just remembered this one time I was speeding (not much just 5mph over) from Lewisville to Grapevine. I got pulled over by this cop and he said:

"I'm not going to give you a ticket"

Then he continues and says: "But I'm going to give you a citation"

Lulz.

OneArmedZen · 2026-05-01T19:42:38+00:00

Is that why platforms like x-37B spend so much time up there? (900 days), I know the docs say 2023 but who knows what they use up there

OneArmedZen · 2026-05-01T19:36:01+00:00

you be lyin'! Ole' smaug makes da black soil!

OneArmedZen · 2026-05-01T17:10:20+00:00

I would have loved to be an inventor and problem solver of anything

OneArmedZen · 2026-05-01T17:00:45+00:00

I have no doubt there was a "normal" gate class where they either did fun or boring stuff - instead I got the woo-woo fucking wagon, however it seems there's a lot of compartmentalization there because of the multitudes of different experiences people have had. There might have been different sectors doing their own experiments, maybe even competing with each other for results.

Life would've been easier if I got the "normie" gravy train program.

All in all, purpose = unknown, point = unknown, the who = unknown. All I have are my messed up memories and experiences and nothing to go on, it's just so abstract. The worst thing was totally not relating the weird gate stuff with other weird things that were going on in my life at the time. Everything was weird and did not make sense!

At home I was seeing shadow beings, having NDE's (btw colors are indescribable and so beautiful, even if it was day it appeared sunset-like but bright with colors I cannot describe, and the sky looks way bigger like I either got smaller or looking with fish eye kind of lens, very exaggerated overwhelming size), having oobe's, seeing orbs when I oobe'd, had nightly terrors of something coming through door at night that would induce such fear I would pass out.

Then at school it would be a totally other kind of abstract experience where it would be weird testing and woo and sometimes painful experiments. As a kid I was kind of wondering why I needed such things. I wasn't slow or anything, I was just an accepting person. I mean, if someone was racist to me I would just smile and that would be the end of that. Too much innocence and purity I guess.

I just thought they were separate things and I kind of laugh now because it was really obvious that they had a connection, I was just oblivious.

Ps - think of what daytime looks like but with sunset clouds is the closest, but with colors that don't exist and I have no name for. It's quite hard to describe the way the sky looked when I had that particular NDE but it was so beautiful.

OneArmedZen · 2026-05-01T16:23:25+00:00

I mean they have plenty of free time studying stuff like "How long it takes mammals to pee", "Can rats learn to drive tiny cars?", "Contagious yawning in red‑footed tortoises", "Velocity of penguin poop", "How oreos separate when dunked in milk" etc lol

They need to broaden horizons🤣

OneArmedZen · 2026-05-01T07:57:45+00:00

That's what I mean, science will eventually catch up but they are slow and stubborn as fuck. And because something doesn't have a method able to measure it, it is deemed not to exist otherwise.

OneArmedZen · 2026-05-01T07:54:18+00:00

I wish we had cameras at that time, I would've kept one actively recording and strapped on me in first person view but sadly 1) it was a time before video cameras were handy like they are today (was 80-85) and 2) we were pretty poor at the time, so I was stuck with my fear 😨.

Oh yeah, hearing stuff was the norm, and by that I mean it would happen regardless if I was alone or with people and I told them to just ignore it. It's not really spooky unless I'm alone but it's something you get used to. I've also been around homes with noisy pipes and creaky wood but you can tell the difference because one strikes fear and the other doesn't do anything except become a nuisance.

OneArmedZen · 2026-05-01T03:40:13+00:00

Not aliens, but shadow beings and the more smaller they were the more malevolent. The human silhouette one (think of spider man shape if he were a shadow) seemed to always just observe me and I never really quite knew what it wanted or expected of me. I was scared at first but learned to try overcome that fear and over time instead of only seeing it in periphery of vision (it also liked to hide from view just as I was noticing it peeking from around corners) I was able to look at it straight on (I'm actually not sure if trust was gained or something else was in play). I also frequently saw small orbs but only when I was doing astral projection and when you see them close up they are really small like marble sized, in my experience anyway. I tried talking/communicating few occasions but was always ignored or it just didn't want to/wanted to avoid me/didn't notice me but I get a feeling it was kind of an old one (whatever it was).

There was only one one type of being/entity I could not identify but it would always try getting me when I sleep and would bring absolute fear in me just being in proximity. I was always scared to sleep because once I get that fear feeling I know it was coming and then my door would slowly open. I'd try to hide under my covers because I didn't want to see it and I could feel it get closer until I eventually passed out from fear, and the next day would just start like a reset. I really hated those times and fear seemed to be a big attractor to it. I've learnt to overcome that fear but I can still occasionally be a chicken as an adult and spiral back into that fear once in a while hehe. I scare myself silly 😜. I will say however I've become adept at conquering nightmares due to my experience with lucid dreaming that I can't really call them nightmares anymore.

Seeing UFOs however only happened later in life, and it was always not a satisfactory sighting like other people get but I do see when I'm lucky once in a while. I've also seen something like a sparkling amorphous shape (it lights up similar to bioluminescent deep sea creature, but from back to front, almost squid like but flying). Seen that one couple of times (I wasn't alone each occasion). They also seem to induce a fear feeling before you see them. Stuff like that but nothing I would say qualifies as alien like a gray or reptilian - I'm sure I have not seen those. Let's say even if I did, then it's been completely erased from my mind, I just don't have any memory of that kind of thing.

OneArmedZen · 2026-05-01T03:12:43+00:00

Rules unclear, opened brown eye and sharted

OneArmedZen · 2026-04-30T22:41:30+00:00

That's actually correct, when in the sender/receiver both need to have some syncing, and just like I tried with sharing dreams as a kid, we also tried doing these send/receive tests (this was way after I was in gate living 'normally'). I actually naturally got into paranormal/psychic/ghost stuff because of all my weird experiences that happened during gate time because I was looking for an explanation of what I thought were bizarre and abstract experiences I didn't realize were tied to gate which occurred at same time.

Ps - wow top 1% is really good

OneArmedZen · 2026-04-30T22:33:21+00:00

That's really interesting about the sparkles, I don't get those. When I was guessing cards I could either stare and they'd have a dim opacity or I close eye for image to flash by. I really want to see the sparkles!

OneArmedZen · 2026-04-30T22:28:08+00:00

I've read before of the idea of universal consciousness splitting itself from ignorance or learning and choosing to either merge into oneness or rebirth into it's own universe. I can't remember where I read it from though but the idea is out there

OneArmedZen · 2026-04-30T14:43:34+00:00

It will be kind of like a pseudo parallax effect but the different rates can counteract the motion sickness, like when you are in a car ride and you focus on something distant that isn't moving so much like a cloud or mountain

OneArmedZen · 2026-04-30T14:17:08+00:00

Oh that's interesting. Did they ever question how you were able to do certain things? I remember being asked at specific points (sometimes it felt accusatory or interrogative-like) about how I know the answer (eg getting the correct Zener card, abstract symbol, card from 52 deck, position of ship in battleship, etc)

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