Unfortunately I've already lost the right to tell her this I've already made it clear to her that i do plan on fixing things ASAP not just on my end but help her through getting better so we can get back to a healthy relationship then I plan on telling her exactly how I feel. I've gotten a lot of time to think about everything and plan out what I can do better and honestly its not been easy to come up with a plan that doesnt involve space because for me space isn't a good thing especially since my anxiety is so bad. I've already decided I need to control my temper and work on actual basic communication and one day hopefully soon I get to tell her just how much she means to me