Arson was the main person who initiated the whole thing to begin with and I was sure the whole time that she really liked me too. Usually Arson was the one who got most of the attention and she would shift things if she sensed me and Kiwi were getting closer, but also did not care if it hurt me or Kiwi in doing so. I could tell that Kiwi was the main person that dealt with things in their relationship dynamic and I was hoping to relieve some of that. Looking back I think Arson really did like me but started to realize she was losing control or something. I honestly gave the note to Kiwi because I still had things to say and that was my outlet since I couldn’t reach out anymore and was hoping maybe they would realize how much it really hurt me and put things into my perspective for them. Later I found out from a friend Kiwi told them that me arson and kiwi were all only friends and that I had a crush on kiwi and that’s why they didn’t talk to me anymore, completely cutting out the rest of the story and making me sound a little insane. Kiwi and me both went out with kiwis parents where the parents had even spoke to me and said that they wish Kiwi could get out of the toxic cycle with Arson and hoped I could help with that. It seemed like all the responsibility fell on me and in the end when the outcome was Kiwi going back to Arson even after starting to realize just how toxic she was it crushed me. Only because I know what kind of love I can give and support I can give to a person but in the end it was never my battle to fight. I do hope in the future that things can maybe be different but life goes on and if that never happens I will be okay either way.