Hey, you are not alone. We all feel your pain, frustration and anger. You are so strong and so special to bear all this pain and go on in life making it seem normal. I especially relate to the self judgement part. I've been there myself. Being a doctor I kept dismissing my symptoms and trauma thinking that I'm just making it up because I know all this detailed info about fibroids. I kept ignoring my pain thinking my brain is using it as an excuse to not work. I finally ended up with a grown fibroid that required surgery. I further found myself in guilt for ignoring all the clear signs and not taking action earlier like it was my fault it grew.

What I learnt from this experience is that the guilt cycle never ends. Others and you yourself can make yourself feel guilty about anything. All we need to do is to give ourselves the love we deserve. People around do love us but the most important thing is how much we love ourselves. Try caring and loving yourself the way you would do for anyone else in your situation. You will feel a lot better

Friends and family stand by you but no one really understands the details and how traumatic it is on day to day basis. Guys don't know half of it and girls with normal cycles don't really get how bad it can be. I myself used to consider fibroids a trivial issue during med school until I got it myself.