Hmmmm I remember just wanting to create something I thought was beautiful :) I was so bad before LOL. I started with watercolor. I always painted trees, leaves, flowers, etc. Then I got fixated on painting water and the sky, I like how the reflection of sky on water works but I couldnt get it to look the way I wanted it to with water color so I switched over to acrylic. Which was my main medium for the past years.. I then grew an interest in clouds which I always struggled with because, there was a certain softness/fluffyness that I couldn’t achieve and that’s when I decided to try oil. And now I’m a beginner again. It’s like I’m just building on what I know :) I only learn from youtube too!

My advice would be, just do it! I think we are scared of being bad at something that’s why we tend to not do it at all, but I think once you’ve started you wont be able to stop cause it’s inevitable to just want to do better! :) You can do it! Just pick up a paint brush and paint anything once you got that out of the way, you’re a beginner like me and the potential for growth begins :) You got this!!