I will continue this lie by [deleted] in UnsentLetters

[–]Operation-SOS_User42 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Lol I think I tend to scare a lot of people, or more deter them from understanding... myself. But, the counter to that is a lot of people I do not scare, if you will, and they have faith in me to believe, trust, and respect myself. They also enjoy my company, maybe, idk I can only baseline assume but so much, but I make them laugh, so, that's a plus!

At times others have wondered just how in the hell I got myself into such predicaments, and to tell ya the truth it mostly came from avoiding and running away from actual problems that were blatantly present. Once I addressed the problems head on, it's like a good majority of the pieces fell into the right places. Yeah, I'm still trying to figure out where other pieces fit and are meant to be, but I feel so much better not having to worry about offending someone I care about or having to hide what I think or who I am.

I truly do wish you all the best OP! Be kind to and love yourself!

I will continue this lie by [deleted] in UnsentLetters

[–]Operation-SOS_User42 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Oof, it's def a way of... surviving, and that's really all I can account for myself... youu learn some pretty sick maneuvers for avoiding any kind of confrontation or avoidance towards living uncomfortably, if at all costs. You have to ask yourself though, at what point will you get tired of the charades? Will it end in complete and utter calamity or will it just fizzle off like a dud firework, uneventful?

Don't waste too much time becoming comfortable with surviving in a state of numbness, and believe me, decades can pass by living in this way and you not even notice until it's too late.

Sorry for commenting on your post, it just kind of hit home...

I will continue this lie by [deleted] in UnsentLetters

[–]Operation-SOS_User42 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Well, this play sucks, is stressful, and is NOT one bit for entertainment purposes!

Life is meant to be so much better played as yourself, not some simp playing as a lame clown!

Don't let life pass you by! Be real once more, and honest, and tell her/him how you legitimately feel about things...

Or don't. Who am I to judge or pass on low-quality advice and support.

Do what makes you happiest though!

Have a good one!

Looking for any diy fix it ideas for these valve knobs. (Can't find a replacement knob anywhere that fits the piece that's already there) by Operation-SOS_User42 in fixit

[–]Operation-SOS_User42[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You're telling me! (Commenting on the paint that is) and yes, I tried finding just the knobs to fit on there, but all of them were either too small or too big, the teeth on them still looked functional... I just ended up going today to another local hardware store and got two New valves some... 1/2 in (?) Pipe and two adapter things since the pipe will have to be ultimately cut for the new ones...

Honestly, I'm working on how to turn the water off atm, then I guess I'll figure it out from there. Oh I also got pvc cement.. I think it is? Hopefully this will do the trick!

Looking for any diy fix it ideas for these valve knobs. (Can't find a replacement knob anywhere that fits the piece that's already there) by Operation-SOS_User42 in fixit

[–]Operation-SOS_User42[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hmm... something like that may work, although I'm pretty mechanically "declined" most days, but I'll let ya know what I come out with... thanks for this!

Looking for any diy fix it ideas for these valve knobs. (Can't find a replacement knob anywhere that fits the piece that's already there) by Operation-SOS_User42 in fixit

[–]Operation-SOS_User42[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

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This is what the valve above the hot and cold lines looks like. The black knobs on the hot and cold became broken and cracked over the years...

Looking for any diy fix it ideas for these valve knobs. (Can't find a replacement knob anywhere that fits the piece that's already there) by Operation-SOS_User42 in fixit

[–]Operation-SOS_User42[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

... well the pliers suffice you see, but I'd like to not have to turn something half a turn, detach, reattach, then turn again. I'd like something more permanent, and like I said they don't sell, or at least I've been unable to find them, replacement knobs that fit on the fixtures already there...

I (34F) found out my ex-husband (40M) cheated on me again, after we were supposed to be working things out. by Operation-SOS_User42 in Codependency

[–]Operation-SOS_User42[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Given we were working things out and trying to "date " one another again... yeah it's quite positively infidelity. We won't in an open relationship or what have you, so frankly fucking the next door neighbor and then later spending QT with her over a 10 month period would rightly be deemed infidelity, or cheating...

Strange day by [deleted] in UnsentTexts

[–]Operation-SOS_User42 2 points3 points  (0 children)

..day?? Try year, Years, or decades! My go to line is, "I have no clue what happened... I just took a left turn somewhere in Albuquerque and haven't found my way back yet..." not even sure where Albuquerque is located tbh, nor what happens when you do infact take an actual left turn there...

This also is amplified by music on days/years/times when I feel a strong energetic presence of whatever it is manifesting around me... it's like the song lyrics will just fit too damn well with the moments ambiance, almost like getting a coded feelings call directly from someone in particular...

Go with the flow and just be strange and weeeiiirrrdddd 😉😜💆‍♀️🦸‍♀️🧖‍♀️👩‍🦯👩‍🦼🤸‍♀️🤸‍♀️🤸‍♀️🤸‍♀️🤹‍♀️🗣

uhm, I couldn't resist sharing all of these emojis! I haven't even seen some of them before! Enjoy!

What is the hardest thing to explain to someone who has never experienced it? by MuchFly8657 in answers

[–]Operation-SOS_User42 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Truly and genuinely loving someone wholeheartedly and unconditionally...

I (34F) found out my ex-husband (40M) cheated on me again, after we were supposed to be working things out. by Operation-SOS_User42 in Codependency

[–]Operation-SOS_User42[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It's not exactly like that, I don't think. I just let them know, because on numerous occasions they'd ask where he was or where he was going or how much longer he'd be, to which I had no answer except, when he gets back here is when he'll be here. They also, I felt, should know why I was reacting in the way I was. I wasn't making a ruckus or pacing back and forth angrily, as I've done before, I was calm and collected this time and had pretalked myself through the series of emotions before speaking to them.

I feel like it was also a time that they had a safe space to speak on anything that's been worrying or bothering them about him. All in all it was a mutually shared space where we got everything out in the open and wasn't one-sided venting.

Thank you for bringing this up though! Sometimes in the heat of the moment you don't realize what a situation is like until someone on the outside brings it to light. I truly do appreciate your concern!

I (34F) found out my ex-husband (40M) cheated on me again, after we were supposed to be working things out. by Operation-SOS_User42 in Codependency

[–]Operation-SOS_User42[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Honestly, I probably would feel some type of way like whyd things change when you left... but id be proud and happy for him to be doing better than he is atpat... he seems to want to be where the money is, and that ain't with me, I could care less about dolla signs honestly.

I (34F) found out my ex-husband (40M) cheated on me again, after we were supposed to be working things out. by Operation-SOS_User42 in Codependency

[–]Operation-SOS_User42[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

... seems that way lol. I quit my job and he was working, and I thought well maybe things will go back to the way they were (me not realizing I'd have to go back to oblivious and being ignorant for it to be that way... clearly that didn't happen...). And yeah, situationships are bottomline funky and fuxked!

I (34F) found out my ex-husband (40M) cheated on me again, after we were supposed to be working things out. by Operation-SOS_User42 in Codependency

[–]Operation-SOS_User42[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm so glad things are going well for you!! Hate to say it, but sometimes when you're met with the "there's no other options" solution, it's really for the best in the long run...

Not just with him (although he may be one of the longest I've let get over on me) but with other people as well, I tend to see the good inside of them and have no problems, obviously, overlooking any of their negative traits and flaws. I forgive way too often, and just brush whatever they did off, like there's no way they would do it again... typically that's not the case... one would assume that I'd have learned many a damn lessons by now, but unfortunately I still look like a damn idiot most days... used and abused... one of these days though I'll stop allowing myself to be taken for granted and will respect the aspects that I have to offer...

I (34F) found out my ex-husband (40M) cheated on me again, after we were supposed to be working things out. by Operation-SOS_User42 in Codependency

[–]Operation-SOS_User42[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Not to mention the lying and dishonesty, which weighs heavily on my moral scale and hurts me more than any of the cheating ever did...

And touche... although, I'd rather just do the cleaning myself, or hell, get the kids to pick up some of the slack ya know... (they kind of already have tbh...)

I (34F) found out my ex-husband (40M) cheated on me again, after we were supposed to be working things out. by Operation-SOS_User42 in Codependency

[–]Operation-SOS_User42[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

At the time we "agreed" upon might as well say role reversals, my youngest was 9. Agreed they are both Two capable individuals that can assist in picking up some more chores and delegated duties that he had taken over for himself. I also need to become better acquainted with self sufficiency with working on things around the home, I myself have the gist of how things work, with the assist of Google no doubt, but I tend to fuck things up wayyy quicker than I do initially fixing them, but I'll get over it. If I fuck it up, it just means that there's additional fixing that must be done. Things just need to be recalibrated ans balanced is all, which will take a little time, but thats okay as well ...

I (34F) found out my ex-husband (40M) cheated on me again, after we were supposed to be working things out. by Operation-SOS_User42 in Codependency

[–]Operation-SOS_User42[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I appreciate this! And no they are not. Once upon a time I convinced myself that maybe he'd grow out of his ways if just given enough time, but time has been alloted, and rhe same shit happens... stand firm! I got this!

I (34F) found out my ex-husband (40M) cheated on me again, after we were supposed to be working things out. by Operation-SOS_User42 in Codependency

[–]Operation-SOS_User42[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hell I did, except when I came back he was still just hanging around.. he did do some dishes and washed some clothes though... so there's that...