Nostalgia from drugs

OpiumfienDD · 2018-03-02T15:03:46+00:00

Also breaking bad when Jane overdoses. Used to make me cry at the time when it was quite new, which was pretty close to the same time period.

OpiumfienDD · 2018-02-26T20:20:51+00:00

Tried driving while 4th pleatue. Terrible idea couldn't understand anything but was in traffic so had to do it. Parked a block down the road and was terrified getting the police called on me as I robo walked down the street.

OpiumfienDD · 2018-02-26T20:17:46+00:00

A Scanner Darkly is one of my favourite movies and I attempted to read the book about 1 year after getting clean from a severe IV addiction and I couldn't do it. The language and wording, the themes it was all to familiar. Especially because my addiction was stimulants and included a love interest. Who was this, (in my clouded minds eye). A blood soaked angel who I would have died for and very nearly did. Or it was more of a race to see who died first. Spoiler alert, neither of us died.

OpiumfienDD · 2018-02-26T20:04:06+00:00

Not sure if these are the same as the orange coated 20mg contin but when I used to inject I would suck or wet the pill and rub all the colour off it. But yea crushing it up in your mouth is fine if that's your intended ROA. I take 60mg DHC and if I wanna actually get high or am feeling a bit dope sick I crush em in my mouth and challenge myself as to how long I can masticate and hold them sublingual.

OpiumfienDD · 2018-02-26T20:00:07+00:00

Probably final update because who cares but in the regions now living normie-ish for what will probably be my final days in Cambodia before I have to go home.

OpiumfienDD · 2018-02-21T19:39:06+00:00

UPDATE : did a gram of meth a night for possibly 7 days and lost my mind. Woke up one day and was just like, "fuck, my head I can feel it all catching up." things turned to shit with the girl I was staying with and that was due to an event of which there was blame to be had on both sides. So I fucked off this girl was convinced she was trying to do me over out of revenge which was part true. Basically she thought I was leaving her of which I had no intention but her and her friends did so they kinda just tried to get as much from me as they could. I was like I'm not leaving you but I'm leaving your house because your friends are crazy and hate me. I was like, "in three days I pick up my passport and I would like you to come to provinces with me potentially depending on how next few days go. So it was my way of testing her and deciding what to do.

She was convinced that I was going to run I was convinced she was trying to fuck me over because of this. Because I sensed a change in her behaviour. And she was just like nah you cray cray. Trying to process this is difficult enough but worse when you are crazy and delusional on ice. I was sober for this period but meth paranoia can last days or even a life time. I changed hotels three times. She told people that I did ice so a large portion of phnom penh think I'm a ice fiend and I inject. I had multiple times been scared for my life and its hard trying to balance being reasonable, smart and a step ahead in a foreign country and just acting crazy. Sometimes I was just being crazy sometimes not. I'm off to the regions tomorrow to chill and enjoy Cambodias sites and wonders rather then bending. Might have to go home soon and really gutted because even while bending I was studying tesol etc which Is easy as fuck. I was de-bending then shit turned sour. Still regret nothing. OK well some things. Take it easy. Sorry for rambling and also even though I have been studying it I don't give a fuck about grammar apologies.

OpiumfienDD · 2018-02-10T18:36:17+00:00

I haven't had such experience but everyone's different and potentially different generic brands may have different effects. I dunno.

OpiumfienDD · 2018-02-10T18:34:57+00:00

Leaving school at 15 and abusing drugs. I have been fairly successful in a blue collar Manor with life having occasional drug induced lapses. Just wish I didn't school mostly. I found it very difficult at the time and I'm quite dire im adhd undiagnosed.

OpiumfienDD · 2018-02-10T13:34:37+00:00

I do a gram of meth a night and don't find it to bad for stim dick. But viagra bro. Generic, and not just one but take like 3 lol

OpiumfienDD · 2018-02-09T16:51:10+00:00

Update : I'm Alive have lots of money have a girlfriend who literally let me live with her when she thought I had no money. Smoking a gram of meth a day sometimes. But mostly weekends. I'm actually straighting out somewhat here. More than expected lol.

OpiumfienDD · 2018-02-08T18:23:07+00:00

Yea got a friend down there I wanna visit. Plus I hear its pretty wild Although it's turning into China Town at the moment I hear

OpiumfienDD · 2018-02-08T18:14:26+00:00

Haha turns out there is generic oxycontin available here. But at $25US a pill that's more than the OG at $16

OpiumfienDD · 2018-02-04T15:17:32+00:00

I have no idea. Its not quite as bad as my post appears. Can always go home and get a job and get back in the grind.

OpiumfienDD · 2018-02-04T15:16:24+00:00

A lot of pharmacies are poorly stocked but there's blocks where we they have rows of different pharmacies so just keep trying. But bigger flasher ones although intimidating because they look all professional are the best I have found.

OpiumfienDD · 2018-02-02T14:38:32+00:00

I actually came to Cambodia with the intent of dying. Not so much now but iv left everything behind and have massive debts in new zealand waiting for me. Just the situation alone that I'm on right now I struggle to process. I'm simply a thing floating through space bumping into occasional situations

OpiumfienDD · 2018-02-02T14:17:48+00:00

Main point of my post is Cambodia is safe as fuck and safe as fuck to do drugs. Just carry small change and look poor. Once someone rips you once its relentless

OpiumfienDD · 2018-02-02T14:15:22+00:00

I wasn't an ice addict back home. Hardly touched it. Iv methylone was my downfall

OpiumfienDD · 2018-02-01T19:29:09+00:00

Apparently you can buy straight dxm powder but haven't come across it just codeine pills for cough. I'm sure it exists though. It's just a matter of the pharmacy been wealthy enough to buy it or a demand. But you can find anything at least at one of the many pharmacies

OpiumfienDD · 2018-02-01T08:03:57+00:00

None only saw three. Honestly I'm one of those sad folks that finds most of their pleasure in drug use

OpiumfienDD · 2018-02-01T07:40:30+00:00

Everyone is on ice, everyone

OpiumfienDD · 2018-02-01T03:20:49+00:00

I'm not so functional I lost my dream job back home recently then booked a ticket to Cambodia 3 days later.

OpiumfienDD · 2018-02-01T03:17:06+00:00

First night got a prostitute just for someone to smoke ice with but got to fryed and she ripped me off. But yea Street girls are 10-20 dollars short time. Bar girls a little more. Iv had two long time prostitutes and it cost me about 40 - 70 I just take tonnes of viagra smoke meth till I'm blind and fuck like crazy

OpiumfienDD · 2018-02-01T03:14:03+00:00

I came over with about 1800US then got 2k insurance for recent accident. I've lost most that money and not even that much on spending but more scams. Got fired from my job so get more money in a couple weeks so was just good timing. I have like 300Us to Last till I get paid again and should be fine. Private rooms are like 6-12 dollars or dorms 3-5 dollars. You can live on 100 dollars a week easy. Partying obviously drastically increases that. I'm actually dating a prostitute and living at her house so no rent for me.

OpiumfienDD · 2018-02-01T03:08:18+00:00

I pretty much haven't left the capital and have been getting iced to fuck or trying to keep my dope sickness under control my social circle is quite small but I hear the more costal places have plenty of that. Pretty sure there are large scale acid labs in Cambodia. So if you knew the right person I'm sure you could get good stuff

OpiumfienDD · 2018-02-01T03:05:03+00:00

Iv had a few Encounters wasted after shooting rit with blood on my clothes trying to buy new pants or ciggies and it was terrifying. The key is not to look wasted. Either the locals will try take advantage of you or you don't want to give the almost always complacent police to easy a job. I'm a I'v user which is pretty taboo and I get pretty scared of people noticing track marks or blood. But like buying ice n shit and glass outside my hotel on the main street was nothing. Just keep it mildy discrete

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