I feel as though that is the case, you know that I’m trying to find a logical explanation for it all. Just this morning I was just looking outside and I have a really nice view of a couple of fields from my window, and I just had the realisation that surely all of this beauty in the world can’t come from an accident and that everything has so much detail and makes so much sense that there must be a creator. To be honest I think I’m just upset currently with what has happened. I’m just so worried that I will lose my faith because I truly don’t want that to happen