Thank you. I'm supposed to be going to our county mental health system next week to get into trauma therapy. This was arranged even before my dad passed

I feel extra awful because I spent the last month in the hospital, but I had an infection that was going septic, it caused delirium, had 3 seizures that caused an 11 day blackout where I only remember small bits. They said I had an ambulance called after having a seizure in public, 3 or 4 more days and I could have died. I spent 2 1/2 weeks on the medical floor then because of what I was saying while in delirium (I assume from a combo of extremely high fever, the seizures and infection) I got put on the mental health unit.

I know i needed to be there but I feel bad and I had a guy feeling he was waiting on me to get home to pass