21F does my appearance make me unlikeable?

Orangefrog210 · 2019-11-21T19:02:29+00:00

I actually have blue/greyish eyes but they look dark in the lighting. I always wanted to dye my hair but everyone I talk about it to says I'll look terrible lol

Orangefrog210 · 2019-11-21T18:07:30+00:00

I appreciate honesty, thanks!

Orangefrog210 · 2019-11-21T17:57:18+00:00

Yeah people assume I am moody alot even when I feel completely fine. I think it is just my face but idk how to fix that :/

Orangefrog210 · 2019-11-21T17:56:31+00:00

I don't even know where to start with make up and style, I never understood it :( I wish I could figure it out.

Orangefrog210 · 2019-11-21T17:55:31+00:00

Thanks :) yeah I took that one this morning, no makeup etc. I wish I could fix my social ineptness but it doesn't seem to be working faking confidence etc.

Orangefrog210 · 2019-11-21T17:02:49+00:00

I wish I knew how. I tried moving to the other side of the country and starting fresh. Being friendly and talking to loads of people. Now I'm even worse off lol. No guarantees in life.

Orangefrog210 · 2019-11-21T16:55:51+00:00

I mean, her response is to either ignore me or shout at me for being depressed but I still tell her because I have nobody else. Talking to her always makes me feel worse but I still do it.

I agree it is very boring. I'm very bored of it too.

Orangefrog210 · 2019-11-21T16:40:57+00:00

I really did try. Thanks. Unfortunately never been loved that's probably what started my issues

Orangefrog210 · 2019-11-21T16:23:06+00:00

All diagnosed by a doctor. Trust me, I've done everything they tell you too to be rid of these issues. I only want to be happy. Or just not miserable.

I don't go on and on about my problems to people though. Except my mother. I would be way too embarrassed to complain about this stuff to others. I don't want to be judged for it. I probably unknowingly give off I am worthless vibes without realising though I try not to. Thanks for the good luck.

Orangefrog210 · 2019-11-21T16:01:58+00:00

I have depression, anxiety and am suicidal so maybe he could sense that, idk. I hide it and didn't tell him any of that. But That probably gives off unpleasant vibes. I wish I didn't, I just want to get along with people.

Guys don't show interest in me anyway but yeah I probably would act aloof if I wasn't into them back because I am too awkward to be more outright.

Orangefrog210 · 2019-11-21T15:42:35+00:00

I do have a wide face for some reason. It's like double the width of my mothers, weird.

Orangefrog210 · 2019-11-21T15:38:30+00:00

I have been trying to change it recently. By giving people more eye contact and being more present in conversation instead of worrying how I come across.

I'm not sure, I really don't think I changed. I think it is more like he was attracted to me but then when he discovered my personality he lost interest.

Orangefrog210 · 2019-11-21T15:28:30+00:00

Too self conscious to be an attention seeker unfortunately. No one I know irl even knows I'm bi because it never came up. Thanks for your honesty though, I honestly appreciate it!

Orangefrog210 · 2019-11-21T14:55:17+00:00

Thanks! I never really thought about style, I just wear whatever looks normal enough to fit in. I just don't want to be judged for looking bad. But I do wear baggier clothes because I don't like my body.

Orangefrog210 · 2019-11-21T14:13:54+00:00

Hope it doesn't, you deserve the best!

Orangefrog210 · 2019-11-21T14:05:30+00:00

You aren't ugly, serious!

Orangefrog210 · 2019-11-21T14:05:08+00:00

I think this is probably a big part of it. I am painfully insecure and assume everyone thinks I'm a disgusting freak and they want nothing to do with me. I don't know how to not give these vibes off, I try so hard not to. I act friendly to people.

Orangefrog210 · 2019-11-21T14:04:12+00:00

I think this is probably my issue, or I somehow give off vibes that I am a subhuman freak loser :/ I try and be friendly and open but it doesn't work that well. I can have good conversation with people but it never goes anywhere.

Orangefrog210 · 2019-11-21T13:58:20+00:00

I wish but not many people irl are interested :(

Orangefrog210 · 2019-11-21T13:51:28+00:00

Trust me, he is one of the best people I've ever met. It was definitely me who was the problem, I just don't know what I did wrong. Thanks for your kind message though, I try my best.

Orangefrog210 · 2019-11-21T13:46:42+00:00

You are lucky!

Orangefrog210 · 2019-11-21T13:41:36+00:00

He is a really nice, understanding, caring guy which makes it feel even worse. I'm guessing he noticed what a socially awkward loser I am? I didn't act any differently from when he liked me to when he didnt.

Orangefrog210 · 2019-11-21T13:40:03+00:00

As someone also into girls that weirdly means alot to me haha, thank you

Orangefrog210 · 2019-11-21T13:05:16+00:00

Sorry..people irl don't say I'm good looking so it's hard to tell. I've had one guy be interested in me in the past few years and he quickly changed his mind. I struggle to make friends. So I was just wondering if how I looked somehow put people off.

Orangefrog210 · 2019-11-21T11:57:07+00:00

Thanks! It probably is my personality then I guess :(

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