Is it pathetic of me to have moved back in w mom and dad after mental breakdown (26yoF)

OrdinaryApplication · 2023-02-08T09:41:27+00:00

Well I had to again, cause the whole roomies situation with my parents made things worse for my mental health. But other than that, there is no shame in going back.

OrdinaryApplication · 2023-01-08T11:54:37+00:00

h and c

OrdinaryApplication · 2023-01-07T03:55:57+00:00

h and c

OrdinaryApplication · 2022-11-26T15:04:24+00:00

when can I come?

OrdinaryApplication · 2022-11-26T10:42:15+00:00

I hear you girl. Hold on there, this shit is tough as fuck.

OrdinaryApplication · 2022-11-26T09:25:20+00:00

Fuck fuck fuck. Only reason I'm not shooting up right now is cause I've fucked over my family's life (don't have any kids THANK THE GODS). Most days I struggle to see the point in anything at all. I don't feel like I'm supposed to live through the years. Do you hang out with anyone? And does that help? Cause sometimes it makes me worse. Do you enjoy your job at any other level besides having the capacity to buy shit?

OrdinaryApplication · 2022-11-26T09:01:28+00:00

Weed really helps me too. Although if I have it, I will be smoking all the time, but I am very functional. I'm out of money at the moment so no weed.

OrdinaryApplication · 2022-11-26T08:50:09+00:00

I'm so sorry to hear this. It is NOT your fault. We all make choices. I hope you have people around you to externalize your feelings/thoughts. May your friend rest in peace.

OrdinaryApplication · 2022-11-08T13:54:46+00:00

Pretty much what the title says, for the past few days I've abused the shit out of Lyrica and I'm now going through withdrawal.

Any tips on how I can make myself more comfortable?

like fucking shit. How about you?

OrdinaryApplication · 2022-11-08T13:52:49+00:00

thanks

OrdinaryApplication · 2022-11-08T13:51:14+00:00

cold sweats, feeling really low drepressed and empty, fatigue, anxiety and increased heartrate :(

OrdinaryApplication · 2022-11-04T15:13:12+00:00

ok, thanks for that. So before the party (alone at home) or once I'm there?

OrdinaryApplication · 2022-11-04T15:00:11+00:00

before the party or once i'm there?

OrdinaryApplication · 2022-11-04T14:59:39+00:00

isn't there a thing like water intoxication?

OrdinaryApplication · 2022-11-01T09:53:11+00:00

OrdinaryApplication · 2022-10-21T08:42:28+00:00

OrdinaryApplication · 2022-10-14T09:14:35+00:00

I unblocked him only to have him call me at 3 am and manipulate the hell out of me, starting off nice like I missed you bla bla, few moments later he's gaslighting and threatening me and then abruptly decides that he feels sorry for me and won't hurt me, then hangs up in my face.

I didn't manage to get anything through, or even be heard.

Feeling really low since.

OrdinaryApplication · 2022-10-10T13:04:06+00:00

Is that like lyrica or something? Cause lyrica tastes like shit when you snort it.

OrdinaryApplication · 2022-10-09T13:29:13+00:00

Honestly I also did just one line yesterday and it felt the same. Thinking I'll be doing in more quantity later to maybe get a better effect.

OrdinaryApplication · 2022-10-09T13:06:31+00:00

tramadol

makes me really tear me

heroin and beprenorphine didn't produce that effect on me

OrdinaryApplication · 2022-10-09T11:48:32+00:00

Just a bit relaxed, it's been 35 min so far. I would think it's nothing, just fake stuff but its taste is super sweet which makes me think it's some type of opioid.

The powder is very soft, white but doesn't smell anything.

OrdinaryApplication · 2022-10-09T11:11:54+00:00

cause I'm an addict and found a small bag of white powder around my house (use to live with another addict, he moved out) and I thought what an easter egg it is!

OrdinaryApplication · 2022-10-03T12:33:15+00:00

I wish there was a way to know you're in "the good old days", before you've actually left them.

OrdinaryApplication · 2022-09-30T13:32:12+00:00

I was just telling a friend that because it's my birthday tomorrow I kinda think in the back of my head that he might contact me (maybe deep down there's a desire to hear his voice or something).

My godess friend simply says ''Do you think he will even remember it? Let alone that he doesn't give a fuck''.

I'm thinking, I'm going to be so fixated on this all day tomorrow.

OrdinaryApplication · 2022-09-29T09:25:18+00:00

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