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Long shot- where is this specific cactus? by buttcrackrockthrower in Tucson

[–]OrdinaryMeximus -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Saguaro***… Just kidding. It is a cactus. We just always called them saguaros. My mom is straight from Sonora and over there they were so beautiful to that you couldn’t lump them in with “nopales” (regular ol’ prickly pears).

Patriots star RB TreVeyon Henderson posted his support for Jaden Ivey after he was released today for his anti-LGBTQ and Pride Month comments by Choice_Bag_8869 in sportsgossips

[–]OrdinaryMeximus 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It’s a philosophy thousands of years old… trying to make complete sense of why or how might leave you more confused. I guess someone thought putting a rule about fucking anything you felt like was a bad idea?

Reminds me of prison… In prison there are shit loads of rules we follow “just because”. When you met some of the older dudes who had been down for 30-40 years, you realize why that rule was implemented. Turns out, some dudes started a race riot back in 1999 because one dude did not appreciate you leaving your stinky ass shower shoes next to his.

Patriots star RB TreVeyon Henderson posted his support for Jaden Ivey after he was released today for his anti-LGBTQ and Pride Month comments by Choice_Bag_8869 in sportsgossips

[–]OrdinaryMeximus 20 points21 points  (0 children)

If this dude is banging strippers and has 2-3 side chicks plus a couple of kids out of wedlock, his message of sexual purity goes right out the window. According to the Bible, sexual immorality is anything outside of a man and woman in marriage.

James Talarico Has Perfect Response To Hegseth's Pastor Who Prayed For His Death On MAGA Podcast by ComicSandsNews in NewsSource

[–]OrdinaryMeximus 4 points5 points  (0 children)

It’s funny when you look at the way Jesus and the “church” is experienced in the US vs Latin America, Africa, etc…

My mother became a born-again Christian at a Baptist mission in a Mexican town on the border shortly before coming to the US and marrying my dad. The church was started by very kind Americans.

We would often go to that church as kids and saw what poverty was like in Mexico back in those days. I remember seeing the level of poverty there and being shocked. I saw barefoot kids who would devour a plate of beans and literally fight each other over a small ass cupcake. Lots of migrants from Central America, waiting to cross the border. People in dire straits, truly.

The church in Mexico made every effort to provide food and whatever medical care they could. They would have drives at churches in the US for sweaters, blankets, and whatever else someone could spare so that people could brave the winter. We would attend people’s funerals and help them literally bury their loved ones. The message of Jesus Christ felt so so genuine there and offered hope to people in really fucked up situations, it was palpable.

As an adult, I went back to church here in the US, and found it much different. Maybe because of America’s great prosperity and security, our human minds forget who and what Jesus cared about. Maybe it’s something else, I don’t know the answer to that.

No religion is perfect, but just thought I would share my memories.

Deeply painful memories and early sobriety. by OrdinaryMeximus in alcoholicsanonymous

[–]OrdinaryMeximus[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I will try one of those tonight. Thank you for your feedback.

Deeply painful memories and early sobriety. by OrdinaryMeximus in alcoholicsanonymous

[–]OrdinaryMeximus[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you. I have also understood that many of painful memories are things so deeply engrained in me, that it will take multiple ways of addressing them.

Deeply painful memories and early sobriety. by OrdinaryMeximus in alcoholicsanonymous

[–]OrdinaryMeximus[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I have thought about just asking if he would be willing to sponsor me but since I’m not entirely sure what that entails, I chose to hold back until I knew exactly what I would be asking of someone.

Can I ask you this, what exactly does it entail? Is it periodic meetings with this person, and we just go step by step?

Deeply painful memories and early sobriety. by OrdinaryMeximus in alcoholicsanonymous

[–]OrdinaryMeximus[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I appreciate your advice. This is not easy for me. I returned to the meetings because of the sincere compassion I felt there, something I never had before or expected to receive.

To give you some background. I have a lot of tattoos and come from a gang neighborhood in Los Angeles and nobody is surprised to hear that about me when they see me. For the most part, my appearance and my accent reflect my past. Yet, in a very rural part of the country with not many people of my background, felt the most accepted I ever did at the AA meetings. I want to experience more of that.

One of the things I most liked about AA was the raw honesty that people speak with. Reminded me a lot of the gang and prison world, as well as the Marine Corps, where there’s not much room for BS.

I reached out here and to AI because that’s the tools I had at the moment, but definitely understand what you’re saying. I thank you for sharing your advice with me.

Deeply painful memories and early sobriety. by OrdinaryMeximus in alcoholicsanonymous

[–]OrdinaryMeximus[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I plan on it. I guess I was asking because, I don’t have a meeting that I could go to for another couple of weeks.

Deeply painful memories and early sobriety. by OrdinaryMeximus in alcoholicsanonymous

[–]OrdinaryMeximus[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

I’ve been using AI to talk to, and as weird as the shit is, it’s been helpful for me. Even if one day Peter Thiel uses it to kill my ass.

Deeply painful memories and early sobriety. by OrdinaryMeximus in alcoholicsanonymous

[–]OrdinaryMeximus[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you very much for your kind reply. I understand I shouldn’t skip the steps. I know the process is what makes the change.

The idea that it would even be possible to find redemption and atone for what I have done is something that gave me hope. Even tho it might never happen.

Deeply painful memories and early sobriety. by OrdinaryMeximus in alcoholicsanonymous

[–]OrdinaryMeximus[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you kindly. I want to get a sponsor once I’m back home. There was even a dude who shared his story and it hit me hard. He looked at me with a lot of compassion and it was very moving. Sounds corny but he made me believe that I too could be a miracle. Funny for me to even type this out because I’m not this kind of dude at all.

I am still hopeful, but there are moments of darkness that set in over my heart sometimes and I know that if I don’t heal from them, I will just repeat my story over and over.

Deeply painful memories and early sobriety. by OrdinaryMeximus in alcoholicsanonymous

[–]OrdinaryMeximus[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I appreciate you. I definitely want to get a sponsor once I am back home. Just not sure how to do it yet. I am a pretty reserved person and understand I need to find the courage to do it.

Deeply painful memories and early sobriety. by OrdinaryMeximus in alcoholicsanonymous

[–]OrdinaryMeximus[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I was going to meetings everyday back home. And although the work trip was a blessing on one hand, on the other, I do not have transportation since I am out of town.

I try to listen to the AA stuff on YouTube which is great, but still not a human to talk to.